Sometimes, we come across this feeling of wanting to start again or go back to a previous time in our lives where we do get a second chance. Maybe we wanted to ask this guy or girl out and we got rejected. Or maybe we failed a huge exam. But what does it really mean to get a second chance? Does it mean to just be able to have a fresh new start or to have the opportunity to make different choices? Could we still make these different choices in our lives right now?

Going back to my freshman year in college, my naive self back then have always longed to have a second chance. A second chance at making new friends, a second chance in choosing classes, a second chance in choosing extracurriculars. When I come to think of it, I just wanted a second chance to redeem myself. I wanted to go back to the beginning, to the first day of my college years and make a better, a more "helpful to my college life" choice. I can understand why I may have thought this way back then. Considering the fact that I didn't really have one set friend group and I was jumping in and out of different social groups, I just wanted to find my niche.

But then, now I began to realize that this is what college was for and that this was part of life, ultimately. We didn't have to have everything set in stone the moment we walked in the door. That is what made living and being in college the more exciting. The unpredictableness and spontaneity is essentially what thrills us all. We want surprises, both good and bad, we want to know that we have to venture out and find a new extracurricular to belong to. There is not a time limit for everything that happens. I realized that it is okay if we don't have all the answers. What matters is that we have taken our time and know what we want.

If I can tell my freshman year self one thing, it would be to enjoy the spontaneity. I would tell her that it is okay if I don't have my whole life mapped out right away. I would tell her that it is okay for me to not know which general interest meeting I am going to attend tomorrow or what kind of shoes I will wear to a friend's birthday party. I would tell myself it is okay to trust my gut and just let it be. That I will eventually get there someday.