My Lord, My Light- My Everything,
I must apologize for so many things
For all of my awful sins
For every step back from You
For every moment I let go of Your hand
My head is a shipwreck
That creates the heaviest anchor in my heart
I am a worn out mess seeking forgiveness
So how could I deny my every reason for breathing?
The human in me likes to walk away and do things my way
But not once has it gotten me to where I wanna be
Instead of letting You fill my heart with love
I let all the ocean rip me up and tear me apart
The water drowns my heart
But the ocean’s salt cannot heal my wounds or fade my scars
For Lord, only You can heal my hurt
I’m so far from just broken
I’m shattered into a million pieces scattered all around
Below my feet and on the ground
But I refuse to be open like the ocean taking me
All of my negative thoughts, insecurities and uncertainties are reoccurring
Keeping me stuck in this powerful current
Help me, You’re my only lifeline
My heart is sure to flatline soon without You
And I don’t need to reach the shoreline
I just need to reach You
I’m almost with You
But not quite yet
Just let me throw away all of my nets
So the waves can’t ever suffocate me again
I let go of all of my past and regrets
All of my pain and all of my mistakes
Every yesterday is now just a grain of sand
Lord, I love You so
Although sometimes I know I don’t show it
Due to many questions and hesitations
But my intentions mean nothing without action
I must not just love You
I must have a deep passion
Deeper than any cut upon my heart
You are my one and only answer to my every question
Lord Jesus Christ, I realized I don’t mind drowning
As long as it’s for You
I’ll sacrifice my life
Because You have lit my frostbitten heart on fire in the pouring rain
All of my pain washed away
All because I decided to walk Your way.