I'm here to shed some light on something that's not easy for me to talk about but needs to be heard. I need you too know that I am blessed but I am anxious, I am fearful in love and commitment, I am a child of divorce. I know you, I know you well. I'm no stranger to your pain, your doubt, your confusion. To feel torn between the two people you love the most hurts something fierce and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Divorce makes things dark, it can make you dark too. But I'm hear to tell you that your difficult seasons do not define you, your savior does.
I grew up with two people who loved me, who made my world right. I grew up with two people who loved each other for 22 years and then, all of the sudden, that wasn't the story any more. My world changed and so did my story. There comes a time in life when we have to face that our parents are not these perfect people we imagine them to be. They are real, they are broken, they need God's grace just as much as you and me. But it's hard to face these things. It's hard to face love when your standing in the ruins of it.
You will find love and sometimes it will break you and sometimes it will set your soul on fire. Sometimes you won't be able to tell the difference, that can be hard when your idea of love is tarnished. People fail, they always will. But if you set your sights on God, if your idea of love is his idea of love it will never fail you. I love a man who is always good to me even when things are bad. When I was angry, when I was hurting, when I wanted to run from God, he was always there and always picking up the pieces. Sometimes I wonder if I would want to run from him too, this boy who loves me even when I'm broken. Sometimes I wonder "Will I always be running"?
No & neither will you. Because I know a man who's in the business of making all things new and who's love is perfect in every way. I know a man who says to me "Abby, you don't have to run any more. Let's walk together.". Our parent's problems are not our problems. Our parents are not perfect but our Heavenly Father is, he will never fail you. Your brokenness is a part of his plan. So humble your soul & put your trust in him & him alone. For you are not a child of divorce, but a child of GOD.
