"Why did that girl like your Instagram picture?" "Who is this girl that keeps favoriting your tweet?" "Why are these girls following you on social media?!"

When it comes to our human instinct, men and women are both the same. When either see something that they really want, they try their best in getting it. When they have it they make sure it's well protected and nothing will happen to it. When it gets lost or taken away, its the worse feeling in the world. I am not crazy, I'm a pretty sane women. What I am is jealous. I get jealous when it comes to people/things I care about and love. What I am is over protective to those I love, I just want what is best for them.

I never knew the feeling of being "crazy" until I fell in love. My group chats between my best friends would consist of me nagging at them to stop being crazy, when it came to their relationships. I would hear about how my friends boyfriend's ex girlfriend wants to stay friends and how she hated her and didn't feel comfortable about it. I just sat there telling her to calm down and to trust him and there isnt anything to worry about. I would hear about how a bunch of girls follow their boyfriend, and he would follow them back, and again I would say to calm down, stop being crazy, and to trust him.

Now months later here I am having the exact same conversation from the other side. Its not about trusting your partner, because I trust my boyfriend. It's about trusting the other people that follow him, or want to be his friend. A few months back an ex girlfriend/current friend that I could not judge, because I did not know anything about her so there was no reason to say anything bad or good about her, had attempted to seduce him. Bless me that my S.O. rejected her and constantly does each time she tried to convince him to leave me. This action caused me to dislike the girl, even with an apology. She purposely not only disrespected me, but my relationship, and my boyfriend.

Ever since this happened, I started to become "crazy". I would worry about each girl that would text, snapchat, tweet, dm, like, follow my SO, because my human instinct came out, and I start worrying about loosing the person I love and care about. I trust my SO with all my heart, but being crazy isn't about trust.

Everyone is insecure over everything. The feeling of being threatened weakens a women's mentality, it makes them more insecure. We are insecure because of this, because of my story that other girls can relate to, stories of girls getting cheated on by someone that said they loved them. It doesn't matter who it is, not matter how much trust there is in the relationship, when a girl says to do something it's for a reason. It's for her own sanity and to call her crazy and tell her "dont worry shes just a friend, dont worry I dont even know her, or nothing is ever going to happen" makes it worse, it makes a girl feel even more insecure and hurts their feelings because now another stranger has entered.

This doesn't apply to just women also, men feel the exact same way. It makes us feel like we aren't good enough, that you have to follow/have that certain person because they have/do something that we can't fulfill. My S.O. tells me to not talk to a certain person, or do a certain thing, I do it. He trusts me but not the other person. Why do I do it? not because he controls me, but because he's afraid of loosing the person he loves. The way a relationship works is communicating with each other making sure the other person feels loved and good about themselves, so that they never have to worry about loosing what they love.

So what if I am crazy, then so is every other human that has the same instincts that I do. I am selfish because I want my SO to be MY significant other and no one else's. I want my relationship to be just MY boyfriend and I, and no one else's. When you love something,/someone you do everything you can to make sure everything goes well. There will be a few bumps and hard times to make it happen, but with hard work and communication everything turns out wonderful. I am human, and I am in love, and love makes a person go crazy.