You may ask - how confused is she?

College is a new experience, unlike anything I have ever experienced before. It’s a mix of crazy people, a lot of food consumption at random hours of the night, and classes that are hard to explain.

I absolutely love it.

I can also say that my future ( that I thought I had planned out perfectly ) has been flipped upside down. I am extremely excited about what God is doing, but I’m not always okay with the fact that I no longer have every detail of my life figured out. I am that type of person. I like to have an organized idea of everything! Yes, I have plenty of ideas of what I could see myself doing, but actually doing them is a different story.

Here is my fix -

Pray, pray, pray

Something that I have always been very conscious of is my prayer life. I have not always been proud of my prayer life, but I have always known of my wrong doing. I feel that college has really helped me. I have taken the decisions I have to make and put them in God’s hands. I don’t know that answer to these decisions, but I have a God that knows. God has known what I was going to do with the rest of my life since before I was born. This fact is so encouraging. Jesus is so so good.

Trust !!!!

Proverbs 3:5 - Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him and he shall keep your paths safe.

I really have a hard time trusting people when it comes to getting things done. I am the type of person that would just rather do it myself rather than hoping someone else will do it. I like to be in control. The situation of not knowing my major gives me anxiety, but I have to trust God. I feel that being so worried about the future could be a heart issue. When I am fully aware of what God’s word says and I have seen him work, it seems that trusting him wouldn’t be an issue. It is though! I have to die to self daily to fully lay all my issues at the feet of Jesus. By giving my worry over to God, I can trust in his promises that he works all things for the good of those who love him.

These are my solutions for my worry about the future. Yes, I feel confused and sometimes even defeated, but I know that God has me in the palm of his hand. I know that I will decide what I want to do. I desire to stay in God’s will so that what I do with be pleasing and glorifying to him. So maybe I'm a little uneasy now, but it will be all right.