Some say that it's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all, but how can we as college students understand love if what society tells us about college is full of mixed versions?
Love, to some, is terrifying, and others just pray for the day their Prince Charming will arrive. Is it possible to fall in love in college? Of course. Have I found love...to be quite honest I'm not sure...
I have found love for music, for my friends, for theatre, for my family...
But for someone else, the time I have spent on my own hasn't exactly given me the best hope on finding, let alone falling for someone. Mistrust, miscommunication, feelings confused by physical attractions, any seemingly smart decision that I look back on I seem to regret and wish I had been just a tad smarter. I'm slowly realizing that it's not my time to be with someone that could even try to understand me.
Love has been a mystery to me, trying to understand it or even just coming to terms of how to go about finding it. Some say that it just happens, it's in the last place you would look, it unfolds before your eyes and you just know. But love has been a fight, an ongoing struggle to understand what it means, and sadly has only truly happened once in my life, and even then I was wrong to believe in it. Love is a painful and grueling process that has challenges, points where you question all your morals, points where you even question if love should really be this painful.
Maybe I'm not the best to speak about love, after being wronged by my own heart and others so many times, but love isn't always easy - at least that's what people keep telling me. Love just seems like this blinded concept that people manipulate into their own doing, until it reaches the point where it's not even believable anymore.
Some things just aren't meant to happen, and the thrill some people get from meeting eyes with the cute guy/girl across the room doesn't mean as much as it does in the movies.
I'm not saying I don't believe in love anymore, but right now I'm certain that I won't find it in college. Or maybe I just haven't met the right one.
Over the years I have always heard the saying, you'll meet the person you're meant to be with when you least expect it. Let's hope they're right.
