One of the biggest worries I had when I was moving away to college, was if or where I was going to fit in.

I know there's that cliché that everyone feels that way when you go to college. You just have to put yourself out there and magically everything will fall into place and you'll meet your best friends forever!

Sorry not sorry, that's so false. Yes, everyone was terrified. We all missed home and were nervous about moving in. That doesn't mean I'm going to get along with everyone that I meet.

It's not human nature to get along perfectly with everyone you meet. Anyone who says they do is lying, and I wish we'd stop pretending like we're compatible with all seven billion people on this earth.

Throughout high school and up until I left for college, everyone that I was friends with would tell me that I seemed unlikable when they first met me. I can name at least five people who I considered to be very good friends of mine who have told me this.

While it's good that they saw through whatever bad first impression I may have made, every time someone told me that I felt terrible about myself. I've always had trouble making friends, was the reason because everyone thought I was miserable and rude?

This thought stayed with me through moving into college. I tried so hard to make friends at orientation and seem as likable as possible. I tried to put myself out there and talk to as many people as I could. That's how you make friends, right?

For me, that's wrong. I don't make friends that way. I never have, and I never will.

I got extremely lucky because I'm best friends with my roommates, and we've become friends with two other girls that we've met along the way. My girl squad is everything and more, and I couldn't be happier.

When I mentioned my habit of bad first impressions to my new friends, none of them had any idea what I was talking about.

The past four years I tried so hard to fit in with the people I went to school with. This sounds brutal, but when I asked what they thought was different they said I was happier at college.

They're not wrong, at all. I spent 13 years with the same people. By graduation, I had maybe three friends that I knew I was going to talk to after high school. I still only talk to two or three people on a regular basis.

I always felt isolated and like I was trying to be someone I wasn't in high school. I was a choir kid who was in AP classes, and that was a label that I couldn't get rid of. I didn't hate it, but when most people saw me, that was all they saw.

I've never felt pressured to live up to an expectation to anyone in my girl squad. They like me for me, and I feel so blessed every day that I have such a strong group of women standing behind everything I do.