I was scrolling Instagram the other day when I came across a video about a student at Cornell University who did a school project about feeling alone at college. The way media portrays college we all come into it thinking we are going to find our soulmate, our best friend, and our maid of honor for our wedding all in four short years. That's bull. College is one of the loneliest places some days. I go to a small college, and I wanted it that way. I thought it would mean that everyone was closer and that there would be less cliques and less jerks. Let me tell you that is not true. They are everywhere no matter where you go to college. I have spent more time alone my second year of college and sometimes I feel like the loneliness is going to swallow me whole, and sometime I feel like if I can't be alone soon I'm going to scream. It's a confusing feeling, no doubt. Colleges put on SO MANY events but you don't want to go alone, I know that feeling. It seems like if you don't have a group of three or more friends there is nothing for you at college. Luckily I live close enough to home that when I feel like it's all too much I can escape but I know for so many people that is not the case. Before college I heard that these were the years that you'd figure it all out. You'd figure out who you are and what you wanted, well I have not figured any of that out and I'm almost halfway done with this degree. The only advice I can give about it is to try and find solace when you are alone sometimes. Do something nice for yourself; read a book (not for a class), listen to your music as loud as you can, go run it out, and sometimes you just need to go get a milkshake and cry about life because it's hard, ya know? I feel that I have come to a point where I'm trying to trust in God more and know that He will lead me to the people I am supposed to have in my life. His plan is perfect and he knows what is best for me, no matter how much I question this plan I am trying to embrace the unknown and learn a little more about myself this last semester of the year. I know looking back college is only a small blip on the radar of my life and some people have told me that truly their life blossomed after college. Cheers to that. When you feel all alone, know that you are not the only person in your dorm wishing you were at that event you see on Instagram, or wishing you had a date this Friday night. Everything comes in time and being alone can be very freeing when you let it. Learn to love being with just yourself. It'll get better, trust in His plan.Â
Student LifeFeb 04, 2018
Sometimes College Sucks..
but I'm trying to learn to trust in Him and His plan with my whole heart.
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