Let me paint you a picture. Imagine an eight year old little girl. She's EXTREMELY innocent, in the sense that she knows next to nothing about basically anything from sex to drugs. She is a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, or Mormon to a lot of the world. She goes to church every Sunday and loves the gospel. Now flash forward to about eight years later. She is in high school and in a relationship with a boy. Now imagine her discovering feelings for something she has been taught her entire life was bad. Imagine finding out that you were different. Imagine finding out one day that the feelings you had for someone went against everything you had believed in up until then. Well, my dears, welcome to my life.
The entire time I have been alive, with the exception of the last year and a half, I have been taught that feelings towards a person to another person should be kept between a man and a woman. Sadly, for me, feelings have not been kept just for men, but for woman as well. I am not lesbian but I am also not straight. I fall in between those two titles of sexuality, in the category of bisexuality.
First, let me clear out some things just so everyone is on the same page. Just because I am bisexual does not mean I love my boyfriend any less. Just because I am bisexual does not mean I am going against everything I have ever been taught. And just because I am bisexual does not mean I am any different than who I was yesterday, except you all know now.
Before I started dating Daniel, I was with a boy who pushed me to the discovery of these feelings I have. No I did not break up with him because I was suddenly into girls. Nevertheless, we ended things. I started seeing Daniel. Daniel was very supportive when I told him about my not-so-straight feelings. He doesn't mind and neither do a number of my close friends. Discovering feelings like I have does not abruptly change your personality. Daniel has been the very driving point that got me to be comfortable with myself like I am now. He helped me realize that who I am isn't dependent on my sexuality. He's shown me that people who don't accept me for who I am do not deserve a place in my life.
I am not ashamed to be this way. I am not scared to lose anyone, because if I lose you, you obviously didn't care for me as much as you said you did. I am this way and there is nothing you or anyone can do to change me. Please don't ever make anyone feel ashamed for being who they are. Please don't ever make anyone feel like you are better than them, because as far as I can tell, we are all making the world more fabulous every single day.
Au Revoir.
