I used to love him

He who encompassed my every move

He who made my heart skip

One

Two...

Three beats, just from him calling me "boo".

I used to cherish him

He who controlled my every thought

He who deceived me with false love

Young love

Forced love

Forced to bear these emotions

Emotions I tried so hard to shove

Deep down

And yet to no avail.

I used to admire him

He who showered me with false affection

He who turned it into

Miscommunication

Manipulation

Frustration

Obsession

Obsession that changed my perception

Of what love truly was...

But looking back at a time so dim,

It makes me wonder

Did I really love him?