Being home from college is great. I'm making money, lounging on the couch, and spending time with family. I would be lying if I said old friends didn't pop into my head. I always wonder where so-and-so is, or if they even think of me. It's hard seeing Snapchats and Instagram pictures and wondering, "Do they even miss me?" That's when I remind myself that I'm better off without them.
In our lives we meet plenty of people. Some people make a huge impact on our lives while others don't. For the people that made a huge impact on me, I can't help but occasionally think of them here and there. I mean, I spent a lot of time with them and they knew my secrets. How could I not think of them? But even though I have all of these thoughts, and miss them occasionally, I remind myself that I'm better off without them. As cliche as it sounds, it's true.
You never really realize how better off you are until later on. But it is the best feeling. I deserve so much better than I have received. I'm not saying every single person in my past was a shitty friend, but some people were. A friend is suppose to be there for you through everything, and they weren't. You aren't suppose to fight with your "best friend" over stupid things. But we did. If you care so much about someone, you're suppose to tell them. But you didn't. Friendship or relationships aren't suppose to feel like a competition. But with you it did.
Coming to terms with the fact that you deserve better is a feeling that I truly cannot explain. It's like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders, and I truly couldn't be happier.
Occasionally I wonder how so-and-so is doing. I sometimes want to text them can catch up. But then I'm reminded that I am doing so much better in my life without them.
Sometimes friends, boyfriends, and girlfriends come and go. It takes a huge toll on a person. You feel lost and sad. But if the friendship/relationship was a toxic one I promise you, eventually you will realize how better you will feel without them in your life.
So as you lay on the couch and you begin to think of an old friend, or and old boyfriend, or girlfriend, first think about what the relationship was like. If it was constant stress, or fighting, then maybe you shouldn't text them. Coming to terms that I am better off without certain people was the best thing ever. I got rid of a lot of stress in my life and genuinely became a happier person. Realize that people come and go and sometimes we are better off without certain people.
