I'm not one to typically write a religious article. But something I struggle with strongly is giving out second chances. (Even though I have no problems asking for them.) It is truly hard for me to forgive someone.

I strongly believe in forgiving (since God forgives us for our sins), but I still struggle with it to this day. I believe I have this problem because of my insanely great memory. Which believe me, is typically not looked at as a weakness, but I can never forget when people have wronged me, no matter how hard I try.

I don't always catch myself when battling this demon, sometimes I can even convince myself I have forgave them. It often happens days, weeks, and even months down the road when I realize I never truly forgave them. It's little things that trigger the anger, or despair the person caused me to comeback, and when they do, they do not go unnoticed.

Times like these are when I reach out to God, though I'm not very vocal about it, so to my friends and family reading this it may be a shock. I often pray to God to help me find the strength I need to forgive and forget.

I'm not sure if the bible gives a full definition, or description on how to forgive someone, but I do know that it says we are supposed to. It doesn't happen over night, or over the course of a few days. It takes some time for me to find the strength.

A lot of times I don't even realize that it has happened, when I have truly forgave someone. Although I don't forget it, it just doesn't hurt to think about it anymore. It's always something small that happens, and I think to myself "Hey, that didn't hurt!"

Something as simple as running into an ex boyfriend, or seeing your old roommate in the dining hall. Most of the time I just assume I got over it, or it just has become so minuscule it isn't worth my time anymore.

Just like how it is so easy for me to ask for forgiveness, but so hard for me to give it, Its hard for me to remember to thank God, even though it's very easy for me to ask things of him. I feel like this is a common flaw within society, no matter what their faith.

As nice as it would be to have a sign every time our prayers are answered, or our wishes granted, that doesn't happen. And just live everything in life does, it happens that way for a reason.

I always try to learn from my mistakes, and I am always looking to not only become a better version of myself, but the best version of me there is. I have slowly but surely learned that forgiving is a big portion of that. And as far as becoming a better Christian, remembering to thank God is a stepping stone on my pathway to becoming the best one I can be.