The Banner

I can't seem to sleep

I lay in my bed

It's 2:17

I miss you

But, I can't change what's been written in stone

So I turn to face the cold wall

I look up

Just inches away from me is the banner

It reminds me of you

What we were a month ago

I can't stand the sight of it now

So

With just all the muscles of my right arm and

a quick yank

It is on the floor

No longer hanging from the wall

The banner

Can no longer taunt me anymore

But my memories of you do

Maybe I'll put the banner up again

Just so I can spite myself

But no

It continues to stay on the floor

as I get up to get a glass of water

mixed with black label and vanilla

To gulp down six sleeping pills

and 30 mL of Nyquil

I know it'll help me sleep

I climb back up

Giving the banner a quick kick before I get up

I lay there

I turn and look at the banner again

1 minute goes by

Then 5

Then 10

Then I feel the affects of the drugs hit me

I'm drowsy

I love the feeling

I feel myself slipping away

As my eyes close

The last thing I see is the banner

And at that moment, I knew

I knew to get over you