Background Watcher Of Love: A Poem

I see all these couples around me

their love radiating so big

laughter so loud

I can't hear my thoughts

he kisses her with so much passion

the sun becomes a spotlight

that shines on only them

I sit in the back all alone

no company but my lovable phone

and I'm suddenly thinking to myself

"Why can't I have that?"

My friends sit around me

talking about their past, future,

and wannabe lovers

only I can't relate

because boys only see me as

"Too nice" or

"Not good enough"

I'm forever sitting in the back

watching the action go on

but never taking part

too scared of what people will think

because of a boy who said

that I wasn't good enough

My friends ask for my opinion

but all i can offer is shrugged shoulders

with mumbles of "I don't know"

and I'm suddenly thinking to myself

"Why can't I relate to my friends about boys?"

he asks me for my number

innocently flirting with me

leading me on into his heart

only to turn around and ask me

"Who's your friend? She's cute."

suddenly my confidence is gone

heart broken into pieces

and my throat choked up

as I think to myself

"Will I ever be good enough?"

but I trudge on

forever hoping that one day

a boy will love me

and cherish me for my worth

kiss my lips

make me smile

see me as his whole damn world

because I am worth everything

I am not a penny

but a dollar

I'm worth more than the boy

who said that I wasn't

his pride and joy

I am good enough

to deserve love

even if I can't see that now