Everyone talks about how awkward your middle school years are, but no one tells you it comes back in your early twenties.

First of all, how does this whole "adult" thing work? Seriously. I suck at it. I have finally learned to google stuff first, but I usually have to call my mom for everyday questions. Like: “Is 3 for $12.00 cheap?” and “What time was that appointment again?” I've been known to drive with the gas light on for miles because I spent my gas money on a pizza at 2 a.m. the night before. Sometimes, I get close to having adult conversations, but then I end it with "Let me call my parents real quick."

The best way I know how to sum myself up is that one time, I was a chaperone at a church camp and a student came to me with an issue and my response was “Okay, let's go find an adult first.” Then it hit me: She already did that. Oops.

I’m in school and my parents pay my bills, but I don't live with them so really, I can't be considered an adult yet. I guess I'm just somewhere in the middle. I don’t really talk to anyone I graduated with, but from the looks of social media, half of them are engaged/married/have kids, and the other half are partying like 6 days a week.

Personally? The closest thing I have to a boyfriend is the cute little gay barista at Starbucks who learned my order by heart. I've been spending a lot of my time lately shopping for dog toys online, and 90 percent of my paychecks go to help fund my Starbucks addiction.

College is so different than any other time in our life. It’s kind of when you make or break yourself, and I feel like there’s a really thin line to walk when it comes to that. I know the reason we’re here is to get an education, but we also are supposed to make friends and have new experiences and be involved on campus but also figure out how to not be in debt when it's all said and done.

I’ve just realized we don’t get these days back. Twenty has been an odd year for me to say the least, but I’m learning to enjoy it. There really isn’t any kind of routine or plan at all, and for the first time (and probably the last) in my life that’s okay. I’m seriously the happiest I’ve been in a long time, and I think it’s just because I’ve learned to just take life one step at a time and enjoy what's happening today.

So yeah, as awkward as middle school was… okay, I can’t figure out how to say that middle school was “worth it” in the end and make this one big metaphor. But I know my twenties and college will be. It is definitely a really awkward age, but it’s pretty fun most of the time.