To the people I disappointed,
We have all made decisions in our lives that we look back on and say, “what was I thinking?” I know for a fact I’ve made a good amount. So this one is for the people that have been disappointed in me. The people who looked to me to be of high character, and at that time I fell short. To be honest, you deserved more from me. I constantly find myself trying to think of ways to change the world, whether it is on a small scale or a large one. I know that my decisions are a large part in making that change and when I think like this I realize that I just have to be myself. I just have to be the person that always wanted to be there and wanted to help. I have to abandon all selfishness and substitute it with selflessness. After all, isn’t that what living is about? At least, that’s how the saying goes, “the most fulfilling life is one that is lost in the service of others”.
I’m not trying to toot my own horn by saying I’m all that and a bag of chips. I’m just saying that if I live my life in accordance with my beliefs and stay true to my heart, there is nothing that can stop me from changing the world and in turn I can stop disappointing the people around me. However, I can’t be perfect all of the time. I mean, I know I’m not going to make the right choice every time. We are all human, and making mistakes is a way to learn. Despite this, you all should know that as much as I’ve disappointed the people around me, I’ve disappointed myself more. I have always held myself to a high standard, and as of late I have let myself down. Of course, I’ve come to terms with this, and I’ve realized that every day is a chance to improve.
So again, this one is for all of you who feel I have not lived up to my potential, for all of you who I’ve disappointed or let down. I understand that as a young adult I am a role model to younger generations and an example for my friends and acquaintances. I apologize for doing this, but understand that in life you’re supposed to make mistakes. When you’re my age, you are thrown into the real world quicker than most can be prepared for. I wasn’t ready; I’ve been chewed up and spit out. However, through failures you find success and every mistake is a lesson learned and a memory made. So to all of you, I apologize for not maintaining the standard I am held to, just know I hold myself to an even higher standard. As life goes on, I am learning from my mistakes and still trying to change the world. So here’s to tomorrow, where all of us have the opportunity to change the world, the situation, and ourselves. After all, we are all still growing up.
