Hello.. I'm sorry if this is awkward or maybe even a bit strange. My intentions aren't to weird you out or make you think I'm doing this to get to my ex. That isn't the case at all. I actually have put this off a lot, not knowing if it was a good idea or worth it. But finally I decided, whats the harm?

Girls are crazy. I've come across a lot of girls who hate me because I am the ex, or because I was the new girlfriend. When in all honestly, we would probably be friends if it weren't for those two things. People don't take the chance to know people and learn about them. I'm not here for that. That drama is lame and we're all adults. I'm also not here to talk shit on anyone or the situation I was in. This is all positive.

I've gone through a LOT since the two of us split. Some days are easier than others, most are challenging, for many reasons that have to deal with personal things. And a lot of those things have made me realize I'm glad things ended. I wasn't the right one for him. I'm focused on my future too much and I cannot begin to even imagine how much more stressed out I would be if I was still where I was a year ago today, with all that is happening now. Mentally I haven't been well and I'm involved in too much for a relationship. We don't belong together. You two do. That's why I'm sharing this. Please, hear me out because I really do care. I'm not like those girls that hate for no reason.

I knew I wasn't the one when things were falling apart and wouldn't get better. I knew I wasn't the one when I spent multiple nights crying myself to sleep. I knew I wasn't the one when I was told I wasn't the one. I knew I wasn't the one when I moved on fast. Once everything ended, I knew what we both needed. I remember, days after it came to the end, we met up to speak one last time (peacefully). A lot was said. A lot of unspoken words that (maybe) would have helped before. The one thing I remember the most, was saying, "you will find better than me." Of course, no one ever believes that at first. But I knew it was true. I'm not saying I'm not worth love or that I'm this awful human being, I'm saying I wasn't good for the relationship anymore. Neither of us were. But I remember confidently saying "you will be so much happier when you find her." And I will forever believe that.

I know you will be the best because you will get much further than me. You'll spend long days and nights together enjoying a movie and take out. You'll be there for the fun family events, the car rides, the drunk nights, vacations, all of it. You'll be there even when things get as hard as they did for us because you're much stronger than I could be. And that makes me happy. I don't want it back. I miss those moments some days.. But I am much happier knowing that I got both of us out of something toxic. If you truly love someone, you just want to see them be happy. It may be corny, but it's true.

You have nothing to worry about. I don't want him back because I know I'm not the one. I know the feeling of having anxiety over not being good enough or getting left behind for someone else. I want nothing but for everyone to be happy and enjoy life. I am a firm believer in if two people are meant to be, they will be. I want that for him. I want that for you. You will be happy and enjoy all the big and little things life has to offer. It will be better than the last.

I'm still working on myself and I hope one day to be happy again. As a matter of fact, my love life went down hill again shorty after we broke up. I found someone I cared about and still do, but the situation makes things impossible. Love is shitty, especially when you want it so bad but can't have it at the moment. But life has funny ways of working out. Enjoy your relationship and I wish you both nothing but happiness. Things will work. Things will always work for beautiful people.

Cheyenne