For a long time I was a quiet Christian girl who kept my religion and my spiritual journey to myself. A part of me was embarrassed to admit it because I thought people would think I was weird. Another part of me just never wanted to talk about it because I am not one to shove religion down peoples throats.
Today all that changes.
I want everyone to know that I am proud to be a Christian, I am proud that I go to church almost every week, I am proud of how far I have come on my journey, and I want my voice to be heard.
I have become more open about my religion and my spiritual journey as of late, even though many people in my life still don't know this part of me. When I do tell people that I am close with God and that I attend church almost every week the response is always the same: "You don't seem like the type"
Well, I am here to tell you I AM the "type". I want people to know that I am more than what just see on the outside and I am more than how I present myself in my day to day life.
Another thing that I want people to know is that I am not a perfect Christian (no one is). Truthfully, I have a hard time believing in a lot of things that are written in the Bible and yes, I have some doubts. I am human. I am allowed to be confused, have questions, and doubts. After all, we are all sinners. But, it is important to know that I want to believe fully and I strive everyday to reach that point.
God has been in my life since the day I was born thanks to my mom. She always made sure to surround me and others by preaching about the love that God has for us all. Looking back, I am thankful for my mom involving God so heavily in my life but that wasn't always the case.
When I was younger I found myself pushing back, not wanting to totally invest myself, getting mad at my mom for always bringing God up in conversation. It wasn't until I actually started going to church and listening to the lyrics in the songs and actually paying attention to the sermon that it all started to click.
I would be sitting in church and all of a sudden I would get the chills and my eyes would start to fill up with tears and I would find myself getting so emotional. Thats when I knew that God was trying to reach me and pull me in closer to His undeniable loved that I had been running away from for so long.
If there is one person who will never give up on you that is God. When my life feels like it is in shambles I turn to him and through his grace and mercy things always get better. I took me a long time to realize that but my life, my attitude, my everything has been forever changed since I started walking with God.
From here on out, I want to shout it, go on and scream it from the mountains, go on and tell it to the masses, that he is God and I am proud and excited to walk with him every single day for the rest of my life.
(& if you know what song I just referenced you're awesome.)
