When I came to UAlbany, I knew I had Munch Money. During the first semester, I never really found myself using it. I realized that it was because I didn't understand how much power this little card had. It was coming down to the end right before winter break that I was forced to utilize it.
Coming back, I just realized how much easier life would be, if I just used it. But then,I found myself gravitating towards snickers at the vending machine. Even when I'm in my room and is fixated on getting some cheddar and sour cream ruffles or grandma's cookies, I couldn't come back to my room with having a snickers in my hand. I couldn't not have snickers, and at some point, it had become apart of my daily routine. At the end of everyday, when everyone was in their rooms, I would be with a snickers in my hand sitting at my desk concluding my night.
As a child, my sister was never really into chocolates and candy. I loved it, because that was the one thing, she would never say no about. Whenever Halloween, Christmas, Easter, or any candy related holiday came, she would always really want the snickers.
Everything else she gave to me, which I gladly took and is probably the result to the cavities I've never seem to rid myself of. There were the downsides, of course, that meant I always had to stay in good standing with her because that meant candy. I never know which one of her I'm going to get, the negotiable her or the generous her. One was willing to give out of the kindness of her heart and the other wanted something else in return. Thinking now, I miss them both, each moment always lead to me having something to smile about.
And I couldn't help but compare it the nights, I used to spend laying down talking to my sister. Talking about whatever is on our mind, just like a release of everything, it was our daily routine. I didn't realize until recently why I had this sudden addiction to snickers. Honestly, that seems to be the only thing I have of her anymore.
The only connection I have to her, because no matter what happens from now until forever, I know that she'll always love snickers. I've been having less and less of them though, because I realized how bad it would be for me. Not that my sister is bad for me, no she's the sweet, just a person you couldn't not love. But the less I had them, I realize how much I really didn't talk to her. I tried to replace snickers with something irreplaceable and the less I have it, the more I come to terms with everything. Man, I love Snickers.
