A poets dread
Is ribboned
Around dull evenings
Of black
Blue.
Biggest fears
Glisten in the suns rays
Torn between yes
And always No.
No.
No.
Over and over again -
An unending reel of bullshit
Spewed from angels eyes.
Patience
Perseverance
Resilience
Repeat.
Times two
Three..
Yet how many spins
Does it take to circle the sun
To prove that you're a planet?
How many moments
Uncertainty
Miscalculation
Misdirection
Underappreciation
Would you endure
Before peeling?
This dread begins
Where everything else
Collapses.
When the stars no longer twinkle
Mornings light turns sour
Evenings dew turned to stone
Eternity of longing - for what?
Patiently stand
Wait
Hear
Speak
Don't say what you want to say
Don't be who you are
Don't give it your all
In the end
What's your purpose?
Turn another cycle
Of linen lined promises -
Torn and cracked
Words often unspoken
And see how delicate they were
When you're tattered and worn.
Dread ensues
When there's nothing left
To say
To feel
To entertain.
When letters
Are merely light-shaded
Fireflies
Drawing closer and closer
To Icarus' demise.
There are no fools here
Just unleaded promises
Empty designs of
Support
Respect.
Dread comes
When exhaustion takes hold -
When there is no longer wind
To carry your sails
Or lift your sweet kites.
Grains of sand between your toes
Sudden shards of glass.
Fighting so hard
For something.
To be
Glorious
Supportive
Loving
Purposeful.
Take away a poets purpose
And what words will fall?
What coincides with their ending?
Who stops counting the rain drops
When no one is there to see them?
When do you stop trying,
If no one acknowledges you exist?
How hard will you fight
If they've already forgotten?
A poets deepest dread
Not longing
Not being lost
Forgotten
Discarded -
And ultimately
At a loss for sweetness.
One day when life is kinder to you - I hope that you find the voice you had lost to those hardships. You are capable of discovery, explore it before you cannot see the picture anymore. From one writer/poet to the next, you're worth more than every moment they doubted you. You'll live, you'll love, you'll fly.
