To the girl who thought she was at the end… hey I know it might be hard to believe but just listen… it will all be OKAY! Right now, you are feeling lost, completely alone, and ohh so broken. You will be OKAY, you will find friends, you will feel a happiness like none other, and you will learn you are oh so loved… you will learn you have a purpose. All this hurt, all this pain will make sense one day… you will find peace. I know right now it's hard to understand why: why you, why does it hurt, why are you so unlovable, why can't you stand to see yourself in the mirror, why do you hate yourself? The answer is simple you aren't listening to God, you are lost. But one day when you think you can't take it anymore you will hear him loud and clear, he loves so unconditionally, so purely, he is faithful and never turns his back, no matter how many times you turn away from him, he LOVES you. When you think you are all alone he is right there, he is the only thing that allows you to keep moving forward, to live another day. So PLEASE listen! He is going to do some really big things in your life so pursue him at all cost. You will find happiness it won't be immediately but one day you will find a happiness you didn't think was possible. You will learn to FORGIVE those who have hurt you but most importantly yourself… because forgiveness is a personal decision. He will call you to do things you don't understand, so just listen, they will be the greatest experiences of your life. You will learn it is OKAY to be vulnerable with others, to let them see the real you. You will learn you are worth far more than the guy you think is "perfect", cause he's not and he is not worth it. You will find someone one day… maybe not today but it will happen. You will find REAL friendships and learn so much through them, they will push you to become the best you possible. You will experience heartbreak, loss and so many hard emotions but keep pursuing him, he will bring you comfort and peace that is found only in him. He will test you time and time again, so don't get frustrated trust the process, TRUST HIM! Follow your heart because he won't steer you wrong, keep listening and NEVER lose sight of him. Remember God meets you where you are not where you want to be, you don't have to change for him, just except him. He LOVED you at your worst so keep striving for more, to be better. Continue to love others, to be a loyal friend, because one day it will be recognized. There will be days it's hard: you will question it all… but trust me it's OKAY. You won't always feel like you are enough, but that's the thing about God, you don't have to be "enough" for him. So, get ready you are about to make the most IMPORTANT decision of your life… THE STORY STARTS TODAY!
Love always,
Creighton
