I used to think you never liked me...that you only talked to me because you had to, because we were related, because mom said "be nice to your sister". i used to think because i was the older one that i was supposed to be mean and i was supposed to bother you senseless like they do in tv shows and movies. turns out i was completely wrong.
we have had our bad moments sure, but i don't think there is a single moment i regret with you. how could i? you are so many amazing things wrapped into one tiny body. i have always been jealous...i mean you had the whole blonde hair blue eyed cheerleading life that i never did, how could i not be jealous? but then i realized while we are so close and alike we can also be very different at the same time. lets look at some of those comparisons:
1. your style sense is softie shorts and a t-shirt vs. mine is jeans and a decent top with makeup on
2. you don't spend your money you save vs. i never have money because im always spending it
3. you watch shows like the vampire diaries vs. i watch the office over and over again
4. you are a super organized cleaner vs. i have all my clothes and trash thrown around my room
5. dogs are good with you vs. dogs are not good with me
6. you hate kids vs. i love kids
There are a bunch more of comparisons between us but those are some of the main ones that come up alot. yet through our differences i find we have a strong connection. i know that deep down you might not say it or think it but i know i am the only one you talk to deeply about things, and vice versa. i know you would never judge me or i judge you on things. i have always imagined you as my best friend because i know you will never not be apart of my life, you will go off to California and be spontaneous but we will always be texting and calling and face-timing. I don't expect to not talk to you when i leave for school, i expect you to be pulling up to my dorm room every weekend to hang out (even though that probably wont happen).
Im glad your following your dreams, i have always supported you through it all. from all your football games to your competitions to just your general day to day decisions in life. i will never not support you. how could i not? i mean you have an image in your mind of how you want to live your life and your sticking with it and following that path, not many people do that. i give you so much credit for defending yourself when people tell you "oh you wont make it" "thats a little impossible for someone your age" "where are you gonna live?" "how are you going to have money?" hell if you need money ill give it to you. i want you to be happy and i want you to know that i will do anything to make you happy because that is my goal in life.
i never wanted this letter to be long and filled with memories but just something short and sweet to remind you i am constantly thinking about you and that i am thinking of so many ways i can make you happy myself. i remember when i used to think you never loved me but that all changed when i asked you "just say i love you to me thats all i want to hear" and you said "i shouldn't have to say it for you to know i already do".
that was the best moment of my life.
Love
Hannah, your sister <3
