As your best friend, all I ever want is for you to be happy. Because as best friends, we know exactly what makes the other happy. I know all your weird and quirky lingo. I know how much you hate certain foods and most of all, I know the things that are important to you in life.
I feel that I know you more than most people do, but one thing I didn't know was how much your new relationship would distance us. We went from doing everything together to only seeing each other when it's convenient… for you. Or for him…
He is always there like your little puppy. Or maybe you are his.
I'm not jealous by any means. I understand relationships and I knew one day this would happen…
I knew we would both find someone, and we would be so happy. But I never knew you would pick someone who makes you sad.
I never knew the time would come where we didn't hang out every single day. Where life gets too busy for the both us and we just can't find the time to even catch up. I didn't know this.
But most of all, I didn't know you would lose yourself.
I didn't know that you would stop doing the things that make you happy. The things everyone used to judge you for. You are the type of person who does things on YOUR terms and now they're on his.
I didn't know this.
I didn't know you would pick him over everyone in the world, including your family. That if it came down to the two of us, you'd pick him without hesitation.
I didn't know this.
But I do know one thing. I know that you haven't changed because people don't change that easily. You're still my weird best friend who enjoys doing nothing but annoy me 24/7 with your crazy hypothetical adventures that you love to make reality. The best friend who will drop anything to pet a puppy and take a picture of it to show me later. You're still in there somewhere.
I wish your boyfriend got to meet that cool girl because she's seriously the best friend in the world. But I don't think he ever will. Because if he did, he would know that he doesn't deserve her.
Although the most romantic and love-filled holiday is right around the corner, it's important to know that Feb.14, the middle day of the shortest month of the year, doesn't need to be determined by your current romantic status. With that being said, you can either choose to sulk over the fact that you're single or you can make the best out of Valentine's Day without even having one.
Here are a few ideas to celebrate the day:
For those of you who aren't aware of this truly awesome day, Galentine’s Day was coined by superwoman Leslie Knope on Parks and Recreation.
Who needs a significant other when you have your group of gals. So grab your closest friends and watch a collection of cheesy movies whilst shoving your faces with pizza or visit the local pub for a few drinks. Celebrate Valentine's with your true soulmates.
Have a party
It doesn't matter if your group of friends are couples and singles because everyone is always up for a party, especially if it falls on the day where it's impossible to get dinner reservations. People will always love and appreciate a fun social gathering.
Lucky for you, you don't have that added stress of having to splurge on a special gift for your Valentine. With all that extra cash in your pocket, it would only be fair to treat yourself. You know YOU better than anyone else, so why not take yourself out for a little shopping spree or dinner. Splurge on those pair of jeans you've had your eyes on for months, maybe that gorgeous handbag you've only been able to dream about, or that mouth-watering meal and dessert.
Repainting is done about every seven years, per the official Eiffel Tower website, and the 20th edition is extra special: it's going gold. Previous paint is being stripped and gold paint is being used in a project that is slated to be completed by the start of the 2024 Summer Olympics. (Lonely Planet)
2. It Was Protested In Its Earliest Years: 'A Dark Ink Stain'
The Eiffel Tower on 1888-11-14 - Wikimedia Commons
A series of prominent artists, poets and composers all came out against the Eiffel Tower in its earliest days, calling it ugly and saying it had no place in Paris. This drew a response from Gustave Eiffel himself, who found the Eiffel Tower comparable to the pyramids in Egypt, "a symbol of strength and overcoming adversity." (Tour Eiffel)
3. It Was The World's Tallest Structure For 41 Years
A wooden structure that was designed by the Eiffel Tower's architect, the first-floor theater was replaced after the 1937 World's Fair. It also had a post office, a newsroom, and a radio station in earlier years. (Tour Eiffel)
The Eiffel Tower was one of the main attractions at the World's Fair in 1889, which commemorated 100 years since the French Revolution. It drew attention for its iron and steel construction, which was a great industrial achievement at the time. (All That's Interesting)
7. It Was Part Of A Flight Competition In The Early 1900s
File:Santos-Dumont flight around the Eiffel Tower - Wikimedia
There was a 100,000 francs prize for flying from a designated location to the Eiffel Tower and back within 30 minutes. This competition was won in an airship in 1901 by Brazilian pioneer aviator Alberto Santos-Dumont. (APS)
Overall I'd love to say I grew up a happy overly enthusiastic child that was taught to love herself and be loved by everyone else, but I can't say that and I never will. My smile wasn't always as bright as it is today, but this is the story behind my smile, the story about how I got here to the happiest place I'll ever be. I'll begin at freshman year of high school.
I was definitely not the prettiest one in my class, I was the underdeveloped girl who talked way too much for anyone's liking and was just over all annoying. At school, I guess I could say I sought for attention maybe because I wasn't getting it all at home. The constant thing I'd hear at school was " I can't wait to go home.", but is it crazy that I couldn't wait to get back to school. School was more of a home than my own house, the place where people dread to go was the place I was desperate not to leave. Coming home from school felt like I was entering a battlefield not knowing what I was going to get hit with next. Were my grades not good enough? Did I say something wrong? Did I forget to do a chore? Of course these are such small things. SUCH. SMALL. THINGS. They were blown up into hellish arguments I could never win. I lived with my step sister, Alyssa, she is 2 years older than me and I felt like if anything she took the brunt of everything. When it came to grades she would get yelled at way more than me; they seemed harder on her.
Alyssa was always the pretty one, they rarely pointed out a flaw in her appearance. I felt like I heard it all the time from her dad. A dad is known to be a daughters first love right? The one that told her she was the prettiest one out there, the one that made sure I had all the confidence in the world and more. It's okay not everyone's perfect you know. From the age of 10-13 I felt like I was raised as one of his own, but growing up things changed. He would mention how people would pick on me for my imperfections, but it seemed like the only one doing it was him. There's more between me and him, but that's a story for another time. My mom always stressed out with the family business took most of it out on us, blowing up and being verbally abusive on a consistent basis. I never felt like I was good enough to my parents, I gave my all and got nothing in return. I wasn't happy for such a long time, but I didn't tell anyone.
I thought that everything would be better if I wasn't there, that the home I lived in did not take me into account so it wouldn't matter. Going to school made me feel valued, I felt important and didn't feel judged and picked on. I knew that I was always the smart one in my class and that people cared about me because they always reminded me. I had some friends that really got me through some of the personal conflicts I had going on and they didn't even know because of the welcoming and positive facade I put on everyday.
Where to start...... Let me start with the cliche that life throws us curveballs and what we do with it is what counts.
One day he walked into my life. UNEXPECTED! And one day he walked out!
He walked in with a smile! One that glistened from a mile away! He knew the right things to say! He made me laugh more than I thought I could! He made me smile bigger than the world! He didn't know I had feelings! I didn't realize I had feelings! I didn't realize they were strong.
He poked and probed until I told him I had feelings. I think I screwed up! Because he told me not to and instead of developing feelings, I fell hard!!!! He walked away! He didn't know how I felt or what I thought from then on out! I put a smile on and faced the day brave as I wished I had done before he asked that question.
Oh how that question is burned into my mind! My heart and soul ache everytime I think. He says he understands but does he really?! He knows all my secrets but does he know what this ones like! He's my best friend and I can't be honest with him! I support every decision he makes! I smile at every achievement happily even when it hurts! I smile when he smiles! I frown when he's hurting! But I can't tell him my biggest secret of all! I fell in love with him on day one and everyday it grows stronger!
One day, he'll actually understand! One day, he'll truly see me for me! One day, he will understand that I didn't mean to fall in love with him! One day, he will see that I want happiness, joy, and love for him! But in the meantime, my heart hearts. The heart wants what the heart wants! If only I could restart the clock!
The heart truly wants what the heart truly wants! We can't change that! Just remember sometimes it is gonna hurt, whether we want it to or not!