As we all know there are the five stages of grief which we can put to everyday life. These five stages are denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. I used to only believe we used these things for the loss of a loved one or something in that sort but, lately, I go through these five stages every single morning before I have to go to class.
1. Denial
Whenever I wake up I glance at my phone and automatically press snooze. It cannot be 7 a.m. already, I must have at least five more minutes... or 20. Though, I would love to be the person who glances at the time and trusts it, it is just not in my blood. I planned on looking cute today and perhaps wearing anything but leggings or sweatpants; that is not going to happen. I am happy with being unattractive and in denial as long as I get those last few minutes.
2. Anger
Once my alarm goes off for the fifth time in 20 minutes, I can't help but get violent. I know I shouldn't blame the clock since I decided to stay up way too late but I just can't help myself. I am truly one of those people that you don't talk to till they have a cup of coffee. I envy those morning people, they don't understand the pain and torture I feel when the alarm shows 7 a.m.
3. Bargaining
Every morning begins with the checking of my school email. I pray to all the gods in existence that this 9 a.m. has been cancelled, though, it never is. All you can do is hope, I mean I would kill for that extra hour or two of sleep, please... please have class cancelled. It is all I want in life and, I promise, I will do better tomorrow.
4. Depression
I finally come to terms with that I have to get up. Actually no, I feel like the world is crumbling down on me. Nothing has blessed me with the little few extra hours I needed this morning and all I can do is mentally break down under my covers. It is so warm and I just never want to leave. Why does life have to be so cruel?
5. Acceptance
I have come to accept my fate. Instead of facing my responsibilities and everything I hoped to accomplish this morning, I decide to turn off the alarms and just sleep. I'm sure the professor wont miss me too much and thank the Lord that the notes are online. Maybe I will try harder tomorrow but... thats exactly what I said yesterday. Oh well, goodnight, five stages, I'll fight with you again tomorrow.
So, sometimes mornings don't go as planned and sometimes, you have to roll with the punches. If you aren't a morning person then don't take those early classes unless you have to. All that sometimes matters is that you tried and I try every morning.
