The year of 2015 was the worst and best year of Bobby's life. For a good half of that year, he was bedridden. He didn't want to go to school, he didn't want to talk to anyone, he didn't want to do anything.
You see, Bobby had just realized that the bullshit his dad and the kids at school fed him was a lie. He realized that he was only acting the way people expected him to. The expectation of weakness, lack of common sense, social awkwardness, and low self-esteem. But when he finally realized that, he had to decide what to do with it.
Bobby's school environment was all he knew. It was all he had known since the 4th grade. So when you realize that all this time you've been living up to other people's expectations of you, everything you thought you knew about yourself is completely erased. So you're only left with one question: who am I really?
The first part of 2015 was an absolute nightmare. What I think very few people realize is that having OCD isn't just about making sure things are done a certain way. One major symptom of OCD that I feel a lot of people don't know about is irrational thinking.
Let me give you an example. Bobby might have an intrusive thought that if he doesn't open and closes the door again, he'll never get another girlfriend. So with that in mind, imagine years and years of thinking like this and not knowing how to combat it, especially when you're just then figuring out that what you're struggling with has a name.
So in that year, you've got an identity crisis, OCD, and battling with what you didn't know then was PTSD. Bobby, for the first time in his life, is truly discovering and accepting what has been happening to him. How does Bobby handle this?
He completely shuts down. He didn't go out unless he had to. Unless he had school or therapy, he was in his bedroom laying down. He suffered from several panic attacks a day and was severely depressed, fearing that this was always the way it was going to be.
Fast forward 3 or 4 months, he's discovering who he really is and what he really believes. He's in college, he's talking to girls, he's becoming himself. For the first time in his life, Bobby is Bobby.
