Since its premiere in 2013, Orange Is the New Black has captured many hearts. Fans have praised it for its diversity in cast and ability to tell compelling stories about women of all backgrounds. Sometimes it is easy to forget that criminals are still people, but OITNB has brought a fresh humanity to these women. The newest season was released on June 17 and things in Litchfield Prison took a very dark turn. Here are some of the scenes that shook me to the core.

1. Healey reaching out to Lolly.

Healy has been a rather questionable character for the length of the show this far. He's been a grossly sexist and inconsiderate jerk, but here and there he’s been seen to care about what happens to the inmates, even becoming friends (and igniting a spark of romance) with Red. Healy is a lonely man who lacks a lot of social etiquette but does try to do his job well, and ends up repeatedly rejected. By his wife, by his client, by Judy King. He fails at his marriage, he fails his mother, he fails Soso.

At times you shake your fist and at times you sympathize with him. In episode four, we delve more into the back story of Healy’s mentally ill mother and how he missed his chance to help her when she reached out, leading her to abandon him and never be found again. Years later, Healy takes the delusional Lolly under his wing as if this is his second chance to at least help someone else before it's too late. In this dark prison and his own bleak life, he finds some hope in offering Lolly the support she needs.

As things tends to go in OITNB, that hope doesn’t last too long. When a mutilated body is discovered buried in the garden, Healy realizes that Lolly’s murder confession was actually not a delusion and she was responsible. His world shatters once more, and after making a final apologetic call to his former wife, Healy tosses his phone to the ground and wades into a lake in a suicide attempt. His phone begins to ring, and with a glimmer of hope, he rushes back to see that the call is from work. Healy returns to the prison, informs Piscatella that Lolly is to blame for the murder, escorts her to psych, trembling and beginning to cry as she is pulled off shrieking for him, and having failed someone else, checks himself into a psychiatric institute.

2. Piper's branding

Piper was never really a likeable character, but seasons three and four took her on a severe downward spiral. Her underground panty business brought out the worst in her, even landing her accidental gang leader in the middle of a white supremacist movement. The first goosebumps hit when Hapakuka echoes Piper’s snotty words back to her as she is pulled away by Maria’s gang: “I can’t help you, but I’m rooting for you.” The second comes when we glimpse the Nazi symbol about to be branded onto Piper’s skin. She later breaks down to Alex and Nicky, sobbing, “I think that I’ve been trying to win prison. And I’ve destroyed people’s lives.”

3. Taystee's watch

Tastee was nothing but excited about her new job as Caputo’s secretary. She did her job seriously and well, and enjoyed such perks as phone and internet access and a swanky blue watch, gifted from Caputo. She wore it with pride, until one of the prison guards smashes it in retaliation for her nagging concern regarding Suzanne being held for investigation. The look on her face as her ruined watch is handed back to her is as if all her dreams have just been crushed.

4. Maritzia being forced to eat the baby mouse.

This season shone a magnifying glass on the inhumane treatment powerless prisoners can face within prison walls. From the aftermath of Penntsatucky’s rape to Piscatella’s entire existence, it’s goosebump inducing. Humphrey is fifty shades of messed up and I felt myself feeling sick to my stomach watching this twisted game of Would You Rather play out.

5. Caputo's warning to Bayley.

Bayley is kind and full of life, unlike any of the other guards at Litchfield. He is very young and perhaps naïve, but finds himself a bystander to the cruel new set of guards Piscatella has brought in. He is afraid to stand up to them and finds himself swept up in their tide of rage, culminating in his accidental murder of an inmate. “Why do you work here?” Caputo asks Bayley in episode twelve, himself overcome with the atrocities of corporate for-profit prison. “This place crushes anything good….You can’t survive it, Bayley. Working here, it changes who you are. I’m stuck here. You’re young. Get outta here.” A message come too late, as mere hours later, the once bubbly and lighthearted Bayley is destroyed forever.

6. Suzanne being tormented by her ex in front of everyone.

Perhaps one of the sunniest prisoners at Litchfield, poor Suzanne is often teased and rejected by others, and she needs affirmation that she is loved. She pursues Piper to no avail in the first season, and when Vee comes to Litchfield in season three, Suzanne finds the affection she always sought. But Vee turns out to be a ruthless villain and is eventually killed. This season, we see Suzanne as an adult desperate to make friends, inviting a young boy over to her house to play (unaware that it would be considered kidnapping) and then frightening him to the point where he escapes out the window and falls several stories to his death.

Now, Suzanne is adorably excited when a fellow prisoner, Kukudio, shows interests in her, but their blooming relationship turns out to be a bit abusive and scary. Later on, when a guard forces inmates to fight gladiator style, Kukudio jumps at the chance to verbally and physically attack the vulnerable Suzanne before an audience until Suzanne can't take it and lashes out violently before falling into a catatonic state. It’s a heartbreaking scene and I can only hope things will get better for Suzanne.

7. Pennsatucky kissing her rapist.

The relationship between Pennsatucky and Coates has been an emotional roller coaster of mainly negative feelings since it began last season. When righteous Boo swooped in, we thought Coates might be served his just desserts. But he was never punished. And that was not the end of the story. In season four, Pennsatucky struggles with her lingering feelings for him, finds fault in herself for the abuse she encountered. “What if he’s just like a regular person who made a mistake?” she says to Boo.

I felt Boo’s fury as Pennsatucky went crawling back to her rapist, but I also felt for Pennsatucky, who was tired of being angry, being the victim, having to evade him. She wanted to move on. Unfortunately, this plot took another sour turn when Pennsatucky and Coates began having a heart to heart about the changes in the prison and she suddenly kissed him. And we glimpsed the monster in Coates again.

8. Alex collapsing after committing murder.

We saw how terrified and paranoid Alex became after testifying against Kubra in trial, landing herself back in prison, where her fear was not lessened any more. For a while, we may have doubted Kubra’s want and ability to punish Alex, as Piper did, but when one of his men cornered Alex in the greenhouse at the end of last season, we waited with bated breath, assuming the worst. And when Lolly fought him off to defend Alex, we thought the day was saved. But the scariest part was when Alex snuck back into the greenhouse in attempt to resolve the situation on her own and found the man raggedly struggling to breathe. In that moment, she made the toughest decision of her life. Alex may have been a criminal but in this act of saving her own life and protecting Lolly as well, she unwittingly became a murderer, forever traumatized by the experience.

9. Nicky telling Lorna her marriage won't last.

Lorna is always spinning fantasies for herself to distract from harsh realities. Now, she’s finally fulfilling her fantasy of playing sexy housewife to an attractive Italian husband. It starts out daisies and dirty talk and then slowly crumbles to pieces. At one point, the sexually frustrated Nicky corners Lorna in the bathroom and after being rejected, spews out a hateful monologue:

“…Or you have no future, ‘cause you’re virtual strangers living in a fantasy world, and it’s gonna shatter into a million pieces…plus he’s probably been banging the single mom next door the whole time anyway, because who can live on fantasy and promises that long, right? People get lonely.”

This obviously digs itself deep in Lorna’s mind as she goes on to become utterly convinced Vinny is cheating on her, sabotaging another relationship.

10. Lolly being sent to psych.

Lolly is perhaps one of Litchfield’s purest, which is amazing considering how much she has dealt with her entire life. Lolly has always been misunderstood as long as she can remember, waved off as crazy, her words dismissed, and she has difficulty maintaining friendships, feeling that she doesn’t belong and nobody wants her around or that everyone is out to get her. Seeing her dragged away to psych, wailing and crying, was heart wrenching, especially considering that A) She fought off the faux guard to save Alex’s life when she could have let her die, and B) Alex was actually the one to finish the job, unbeknownst to Lolly.

11. Daya's mom finally getting out.

Prison is a terrifying place. Daya and her mother, Aleida, were blessed/cursed to go through it together, protecting and comforting each other in times of need. They've now lost everything but each other, and suddenly Aleida is about to re-enter the world for her first time in years, sailing the stormy seas without her daughter and determined to rescue her children. But leaving Daya to finish out her sentence alone.

12. Poussey's Death

This season we watched the charming Poussey fall in love with Soso, befriend her celebrity crush, and get serious about planning her future. Most prisoners have lost sight of the world outside, or don’t expect anything to pan out. They see pain and loss and darkness. Poussey still has a light inside her, and she follows it steadfast. She even gets a promise from Judy King for a job when she gets out of Litchfield. All of this makes her death (which references Eric Garner and the Black Lives Matter movement) an even sharper dagger in the heart. The hope, the promise, the love – snuffed out in an accidental moment. Poussey’s future was destroyed on the floor of a hellish prison cafeteria, and there was ultimately no justice for her death.