Throughout my entire life, I have always had moments where I say to myself, "Oh, I am for sure going to do this!", "and this!", "and of course this!" We have all had these moments in our lives. Unfortunately for me, it was a lot of saying and not a lot of doing. I have had and still have the biggest dreams. I want to do so much in my life and at some point, it seems like I will not have enough time. I felt this way for a majority of my life up until around June when I started putting my dreams into action.
Ever since I was a little girl, I watched Youtube like CRAZY. It was my favorite thing to watch. I was obsessed with makeup, fashion, and everything in between. I could watch it for hours on end. Along with Youtube, I loved photography. I am always the person that is taking pictures of everything instead of being in the moment. I think it's better to be able to look back instead of to think back. I loved recording and snapping pictures of everything in my life. It was a passion of mine! At the age of 15, was when I wanted to start my own Youtube channel.
Everyone knew I wanted to start a channel, I talked about it to everyone, especially my parents. They have always and still are always my biggest supporters. I would talk their ears off about what I wanted to put on my channel and how I would create content and become an influence. Well, the only problem was, I never did it. My dad would always tease me about how I would keep saying I wanted to do it but could never take the step. I would just laugh and brush it off because he was NOT wrong! I was scared. I was scared of judgment, mean comments, not being good enough, etc. It is very scary to put yourself out into the world in that way. I just could not give myself to the push to stop saying I would and start actually creating content.
Luckily, all that changed when I turned 19, right after my freshman year of college. I finally said enough and started to create my channel. I bought myself a great Canon camera (which I do not recommend if you are new to filming) and created channel art. It took me a few weeks into the summer to actually start to film. It all started at the lake house trip I took with my boyfriend. I filmed a day in my life there and it turned out great! I was so excited that I finally started creating instead of just thinking about it in my head. It was such a great feeling when I got great feedback.
Yes, I am new to it and do not have a lot of subscribers but it is so fun for me to do in my free time and I actually enjoy doing it. I love filming and I love editing. I have never been more proud and I will continue to toot my own horn because this is one of the first major things I have stopped just saying I wanted to do and actually started to do it.
Do not get me wrong, it takes a lot of confidence, patience, and courage to put yourself into the world for people to judge you and criticize your work, but as long as you are happy it is worth it. I am so glad I started my channel as a platform to express myself. I encourage you, whoever is reading this, to step out of your comfort zone with your dreams and stop saying and start doing.
Oh, and while you are at it, subscribe to my Youtube channel!
