I cut along the arm, severing my red tie to you,

After the heartache, the anxiety,

The starvation and lack of sleep,

It takes drugs and alcohol to give me these small doses,

The taste of the confidence and freedom I seek,

It took many tears, confusion, jealousy and anger to see,

You aren’t meant for me,

It tears my heart apart, causes my mind to swirl,

But I can catch the glimpses my intoxicated state is showing me,

I need to cut this thread before it does me,

You have to find that happiness you so desperately search,

I wish you the best of luck, despite my nasty attitude at times,

Want the best for you, I’m sorry for the hell I’ve caused you,

May continue to cause you until I heal,

I blast the Pixies into my ears to drown it,

Your voices I can hear in the other room,

These suffocating feelings stuck in my head,

The silent voice that wants to scream to the world,

I am here, I’m alive, and I’m okay,

I can still stand strong,

I’m not so weak to be defeated by heart break,

This song is my strength in the late nights and early mornings,

I am finally kicking down this nest my mother built,

Cradled to her bosom since young,

I’ve allowed myself to be a baby bird,

Weak, dependent upon someone to keep me,

This little birdy has grown feathers,

Her eyesight has developed into new,

She has been slowly taking apart the branches,

From a peak to a view,

The world has stretched out in front of this bird,

All to be seen is choices,

No more of that narrow view from mother bird,

Future is so much wider, bright stars and sun,

Thick feathers reach out, take first flaps,

I reach to that uncertain sky,

Embrace me with your cold arms,

Your misty clouds that blind me temporality,

Cause me to fall, to struggle.

I need to work and grow,

I need to show to myself, to you mom,

To the others that doubt and put me down,

I want this, more than that warm nest,

More than the security of promised income,

Than your undying support,

To know pain, hesitation, despair,

Overcome what I was unwilling to before,

I must know happiness,

I will strive, succeed,

Work hard for my future, instead depending upon you,

Watch me now, as I grow and survive,