Life was really hard after we ended. My whole life felt like it was crumbling into a million pieces. You were my longest and first love, the person who I thought I would marry one day and grow old with. I thought I would have spent forever with you. That "forever" turned into almost three years. Three years of my life that I got to love you. I loved you more than I loved myself or anything or anyone for that matter... even food! 

But then things started to get rocky and instead of talking to you, I pushed you away. And because of that, I didn't deserve you. I didn't deserve being with someone who would do anything to make me happy. I thought that the only happiness that mattered was yours. That's why I did what I did, was to make you happy. I put you first this time. 

If I knew then what I know now, I would have don it differently or not even at all. I constantly think of the what if's, like what if I didn't end it? What if I did go to Florida with you? What if I did say yes on June 5th? If I did say yes, where would we be right now? What would we be doing? But I'll never know. You refuse to talk to me but it's okay, I understand why.

But if you ever see this, I want to thank you. I want to thank you for showing me what I need and deserve in a relationship. I want to thank you for pushing me to do things that I thought I'd never do. I want to thank you for making almost three years the best three years of my life. The past eight months have been extremely difficult but I'm glad that you moved on. I'm happy that you went out and found what you need and deserve with someone else. So thank you.

I've accepted that what we had is done and that you want nothing to do with me. It's okay, I'll eventually be okay. But with that, I'm closing that chapter of my life now and beginning a new one. I'm saying goodbye to you. I wish you nothing but happiness and well being .... you deserve the best, nothing but the best.

Your Snowflake