It's hard to explain when people ask, 'Why are you a Christian?' Because the answer is so personal to me. I wouldn't say it's because everything makes sense to me that God says. In reality, I have many questions that circle around in my head, and yet, God is still God. And I am still me. And I wake up every morning in a world, with a body and breath, and all of the memories from yesterday still lingering. Which seems too strange, too miraculous, and too much of a gift for me to not exercise faith, especially when I feel so deeply pursued by Him like this morning.
Do you ever wake up and just marvel that your life is still there? Sometimes I'll open my eyes and I'm simply surprised that I am still me, our room is as we left it last night, and my husband still has blonde hair. I'm just kind of dumbfounded that this whole life thing is still working. And this morning was one of those mornings. I pulled my legs out of the sheets, shuffled to the kitchen for some tea, and then shuffled to my comfy reading chair.
The world still dark blue outside and the silence was a very welcoming sound. I started to write out my very honest thoughts before God. What I was feeling towards Him, and why I thought I was feeling those things. I think there was a layer of my thoughts that I hadn't allowed Him into yet. And after I was finished, I told Him that I was listening.
And in my heart, I heard, 'Brooke, you are a delight to me.'
I guess I could spew theology at you, all of the philosophy and anchored Truths of the Bible, but it's simply because of this very thing that I am a Christian. Jesus meets with me in the most silent times, in the loudest times, and in the most confusing times.
I can confidently say I have a relationship with Jesus. I talk, He listens, He convicts, answers in small ways and big ways, sometimes I don't see it. I question Him, I've yelled at Him, I've ignored Him and yet somehow, His love and His Words find their way back to me. When I seek Him, I find Him. Every time. And the more I learn about Him, the more I love Him.
I want everyone to know that being a Christian is not entirely subjected around being right or being wrong, or avoiding hell or not. It's really just all about Jesus, and how sweet it is to know Him, and how desperately we actually need Him. How much of Him is exactly and everything we desire as humans.
Perfection.
Help.
Completeness.
Creativity.
Answers.
Stability.
Encouragement.
Security.
Relationship.
All that we long for, is found in the person of Jesus. I promise you that you will find nothing better in this world.
And so, I challenge you to seek Him and see if you find Him. It is arguably someone worth looking for. Considering you're here, with breath in your lungs, and you don't exactly remember how 'you' all happened.
Go, and earnestly seek. And then tell me your findings.
