The person i want to be is the person I dream to be. I dream of traveling the world with that special someone by my side. Also, living in the mountains on a lake with a cabin house and a wrap around porch. I always dreamed of sitting on the balcony writing stories and watching the sun go down with such a perfect view. But that’s all very materialistic, it’s where I want to be, but not WHO I want to be.
I want to be someone who doesn’t worry about the tinest inconvenience. Someone who doesn’t let things go to their heart so easily but instead let’s it go because God knows. I want to be the best mother I can be. I want to show my kids things like: who God is, how to love others but most importantly love themselves, I want to protect them from the evil our world has come to. I want to build a stronger and more intense relationship with God. I want to encourage others to find who God is and how he can save them.
I want to be like my mom. I want to be the woman she has taught me to be. She is the strongest person I know and does not let things bother her even when things are difficult. She enjoys life in moments and accomplishes what she dreams of. I aspire to be half the mother she is to me.
I want to be a better me in general. Part of me wants to be the “old” me. Not all of the “old me” but certain parts. I wish I could still be inspired by writing or motivated to do the things I loved to do. I wish I could find the time to write a poem that wasn’t for school. The old me was someone who everyone would say “when I see you, you’re never not smiling.” The old me was artistic and open minded. I want to be that old part of me, the positive bubbly side. There is no wrong in finding the old when looking for the new.
I have accepted that in life every time we finish a page we are closer to the next chapter. I am determined to be who I want to be. Not for anyone else but myself. The person who will do whatever it takes to protect themselves and the ones they love. The same person that would give anything to save a strangers life. The person who feels pure happiness when God uses them to bring others closer to him. I will be the best version of myself I can be.
This is me. Who i want to be. Someone who can stop and admire the shapes of the clouds making faces in the sky. Someone who sees eyes as a key to a soul. Someone who finds adventures in a rusty old abandoned home. Someone who sees what it’s like to love who they are and love those who pray to see a downfall. This is who I want to be.