When I was younger
I used to put books in my backpack when I was in preschool
because I wanted to look like I was in high school
When I was younger
my mom used to come to class with me
and read to the other kids during story time
she doesn't do that anymore
When I was younger
where the wild things are told the story of my youth,
the story of my displacement in school and the lack
of "coolness" I had when it came to being a "cool" kid
When I was younger
I tried to not "look" like a nerd
because who really "wanted" to look like a nerd?
When I was younger
I didn't know what death meant
until I went to my first funeral and didn't cry
somehow I knew then and there
death was inevitable and the panic
attacks that come with me talking
about it are normal
...or so I think
When I was younger
I didn't know exactly what I wanted out of life
but somehow knew I wanted to be in school
for a long damn time
When I was younger
I had chubby cheeks
I lost those now
if you find them, let me know
When I was younger
I think about when I didn't really
care about who didn't like me
wish that was still a thing
we all care too much sometimes
When I was younger
I never wanted to grow up
and now I cannot imagine my growth
without it, funny how that works, huh?