It's 2019 and life is pretty crazy. We live in a world where the average adult spends about two hours and fifty five minutes on their phone SOME spending more; admittedly myself - I have spent above 6 hours of my week on my phone at one time. When it trickles down to what were spending our time on, it gets scary. . 90% of the time spent on your phone is probably spent scrolling aimlessly from timeline to timeline.

90% of your two hours and fifty five minutes a day are spent scrolling on timelines, swiping through possible love matches, playing games, and reading emails. Let that sink in, 157 minutes a day you are connecting to people through that little device that fits perfectly in the palm of your hand. But it doesn't end at that does it?

I, myself have spent hours upon hours not living in the moment. Not just those two hours and fifty five minutes on my phone, but countless hours in my camera attempting to take the perfect picture or videoing something funny or "cool" to make sure everyone else knows how much fun I am having in life and how happy I am. I have spent hours upon hours doing my hair and make up to make sure I am "selfie" ready when the time comes - to make sure I am pretty enough to post. What has life become?

Now I don't want to take away from social media, because there are positive aspects to it. Its amazing to connect with people you haven't seen in years or family members across the country or world even. It's amazing to watch strangers share their life and think "wow I'm not alone in how I'm feeling - am I?". But "share their life" is an interesting thought isn't? Behind the presents and perfectly placed pillows what does life really look like? Behind those smiley couples and adorable pictures with three dozen roses, what does love really look like? It's not that its bad to share the good or "perfect" even but have we lost what life really is? Have we lost the human connection that makes life real?

I used to think having it together on social media meant I had it all. Boy, I was so wrong. Having it together meant I for five seconds put a face on and pretending everything that was falling apart around me wasn't happening. I used social media as crutch to me isolating myself from the real world because I talked to people through my screen - thats the same thing right? I used to think dressing up and putting on a smile, would hide my empty sad eyes - it didn't, I see it still.

What happened, when I stopped trying was a blessing - a weight lifted off my shoulder. I started to live in the moment more and focus on what actually made me happy, not just what looked good. I started to realize and learn about the people around me. When I stopped trying to "act the part" I became me. I stopped wearing make up because I felt like I had to, I started to do it because I wanted to. I started to wear not only what was trendy but what made me feel comfortable and felt like me. I stopped trying to fit the mold of what I was supposed to be and started to just be me.

I don't think that its wrong to like sharing your life, as long as your being true to you. I don't think social media is the root of all evil but I think its really easy to start comparing your life to other. I think its easy to forget that just like you, the timelines your scrolling through are filled with quick shots of happiness (we don't typically share the mess) that took a many attempts to get. Its easy to forget that our social media pages are like scrapbooks we put together, some candids, some perfectly place pictures and honestly some really good aesthetics these days (how old am I?). Its easy to fall victim to what you "should" be in a world that holds perception higher than reality but thats not what it has to be.

I'm not saying show your mess, show your clutter, show your breakdowns - I'm just saying remember behind every picture you see there's a life you don't know. It's easy to assume everything is perfect and some people have it easy but I promise you it's not that. Life is messy for everyone, the second you stop trying to live up to the perception & perfection - you'll embrace the hectic-ness that life is.

Food for thought, talk soon xo