I used to be against abortion. Not for everyone, but for me. Then, I found out how dangerous pregnancy would be for me, how likely I'd be to suffer complications for my whole life, if I could even live through it. On top of that, even if I were to live through pregnancy, my baby likely wouldn't even make it, and the pregnancy could still destroy my life. Now, I won't get into my exact health problems, but there are multiple factors that lead me to this conclusion, and my doctors have told me not to get pregnant.

But, here's the thing. They also won't let me get my tubes tied. My OBGYN said I'd regret it, and that my"purpose in life is to give [my] mother grandkids."

Those were his exact words.

Firstly, no. My "purpose in life" is to enjoy my life. And more importantly, why can't I get something I need? Why can't I make my own choice? I understand that I was only 20 when I asked, but I'm still supposed to have the right to decide what to do with my body, not be told that my doctor would never do it for me until I already had at least one kid. So here I am, relying on less effective birth control because I was denied my right to making a choice about my body. I was denied my right to make a choice about my life—a choice that affects no one but me and my boyfriend, but apparently the idea of me not having children is just too much for the gynecologists of the world to bear.

This was my first denied right.

I could deal with this one. It infuriates me to no end, but, I always knew that in case my protection didn't work, I would have the option to get a tragic, but direly needed, abortion. But now, politicians are trying to deny me this right. A potential Supreme Court candidate literally tweeted "It's time for Roe. v. Wade to go," a week before Ruth Bader Ginsburg died. Someone who could potentially be deciding my right to live doesn't even care enough to truly go through the judicial process as is expected in this country's courts. As a future lawyer, I'm appalled.

So, if Roe v. Wade gets overturned, like the people President Trump will nominate to the Court want, I'll still get an abortion if my birth control fails. But, the difference is that I might not get it fast enough then. With 21 states having trigger laws on abortion, laws that will go into effect immediately in the case of Roe v. Wade being overturned, I might have to travel across the country. I might have had too many complications by the time I could get to the clinic.

I might die.

So, to all the pro-life lawmakers who want to appoint a Justice to overturn my basic right, protected in the 14th Amendment, I hope that that fetus that's not viable without me is worth killing me, because that's what you're really doing.