Life is quite the complex matter, some moments it's smooth sailing and during others, I feel like I'm trapped inside of a dryer on full spin. Cramped, trapped, and dizzy I become disoriented and terrified. Wanting desperately to be freed but also acting apathetic to what could happen next and feeling almost like I deserve to be on a spin cycle.
Feelings come and feelings go, I've been in a process of recognizing feelings lately. Accepting them but not dwelling on them too much. I used to brush emotions under the rug and try to not be affected by them, things tended to reach a boiling point pretty quickly though and I'd break down then have tons to sort through.
I'm trying to get to a better place with my feelings and my emotions. I don't want to be ruled by them but I also don't want to rule over them so strongly that they compile and form a huge mess. The Lord has been slowly revealing more of his heart to me in the matter of emotions. It's a process, let me tell you. During some stretches, I feel like I'm getting new insight from the Lord left and right. During others, I feel like an arid desert surrounded by nothingness.
There are good days and there are bad days. Bad days tend to come when I don't get into the Word. If I don't start my day with Jesus, whew, talk about me being a mess of emotions. Here are a few verses that have been really sweet reminders of God's goodness amid the chaos that life and emotions can bring:
1. When I'm anxious, my Lord is peace
Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:6-7
2. When I'm weary, my Lord is rest
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." Matthew 11:28-29
3. When I'm broken, my Lord is the healer.
Lord, your discipline is good, for it leads to life and health. You restore my health and allow me to live. Isaiah 38:16
4. When I'm worried, my Lord is calm
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can anyone of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?" Matthew 6:25-27
I hope these verses can yield some comfort amid whatever you may be facing.
Life can feel like it's too much sometimes. Let yourself feel that way. But don't get stuck dwelling on the negative. Let the feelings roll over you and then let them go. It's a process, we're a process and we will constantly be changing and be refined. I pray for myself and for you to feel a peace surround your every step as you navigate your day.
