Valentine's Day is coming close and you all know what that means? For all the people in relationships, this is their holiday. A wonderful holiday to celebrate love and your significant other, but for us singles out there, it's not the best day of the year. I don't hate Valentine's day or love, but I'm not optimistic about potential love.
In all honesty, I'm quite infatuated with the thought of love and everything around it, ever since I was young. I remember being a young child going to places and seeing two people immersed in each other. I couldn't wait to grow up and have what other people did, that little thing called love that everyone talks about.
The last few Valentine's Day, I've spent them by myself, sitting in my room, wallowing in self-doubt and my love-less life. While all my friends were posting pictures of huge stuffed animals that their significant others got them, I was wondering why I wasn't able to have someone do that for me.
Usually, several months before Valentine's Day approaches, I attempt to hold a personal goal of having a "valentines", which has never happened. I'm the type of person that likes to believe if you put something out in the world, it'll come back to you. My potential valentines hasn't come back to me, unfortunately.
Why am I not optimistic about love? It's a question I've been asking myself for actual years, it's unknown like the Loch Ness monster. I wouldn't say I'm calling my non-existent love-life the Loch Ness monster, but nobody knows about it, so I guess you could compare it. I'm just an unlucky soul, ya know?
In a galaxy far, far, away, I used to avoid speaking to boys like absolutely avoided it at all costs, but that was also at 13 years-old. I'd like to think I've grown significantly since being a socially awkward teenager, but have I really? Recently, I believe myself to be a natural male repellant, it's just something about the male race not wanting to date me.
In 2019, I'm not making any goals to be in a relationship or have a boyfriend because each year I let myself down. Maybe, I'm not meant to find love just yet, so I'll wait until it finds me, if it's not this year or the year after. In an attempt to set a limited amount of goals this year to avoid disappointment, I won't set a goal to find love.
This Valentine's Day, I'll most likely be spending it alone or with my single friends not wallowing in single-ness sadness. I'm quite content with that cause Valentine's Day is a day of love and you don't always have to be in love to appreciate the holiday. While I do believe Valentine's Day was created as a consumerist holiday to sell candy and stuffed animals, I'll always love it.
Ladies and gentlemen, if you don't have a valentine this year, it's okay, you're not alone, you have millions of other single people and I around the world celebrating this holiday with you.
