To The Friend Who Is Losing Me

You're losing me and you don't even know it.

We were friends. Close friends who told each other everything and were tied to the hip. You knew every little thing about me just like I knew you. We swore we were inseparable, until he came along.

Our inside jokes became his. Our goals that we set for as long as I can remember became his as well. Once you became his, he became ours, only I didn't want him. Do you remember who you were before he came into your life? You were beautiful, driven, and that beautiful smile on your face never went away. Now you are a bitter person, who does nothing but tear people down all while putting him up on a throne.

Our little two person friendship turned into three, but you slowly started to change. Your compliments on my beautiful smile turned into you telling me that if I smiled as much as you did then I wouldn't be single. Guess what? I'm smiling more, and I'm still single!

The once bubbly person that I am has started to change and you fail to notice because you are so focused on him.

One minute we're on good terms, laughing it up like we always did. The next minute we are back to you talking about him non-stop and cutting me off just to tell me how his day is going. It's also back to you putting me down.

You tell me you're not going to leave me, yet you spend every waking moment with him. I call you but you never answer, and when you do it is always to criticize me.

I can see that you are letting go of me and still trying to hold on to what is left of this friendship but it is not enough. I do not trust you anymore and the thin cord between us is starting to tear away fiber by fiber.

I shut down on you and you did not notice or care that I did. Instead you carried on telling me about your life plans with him not even caring that I needed you to listen to me when I cried for help. Why should I put my effort into something that is dying when you are not trying to fix anything either?

You're losing me and now that you know this, do you care now? You cannot treat someone like trash and expect for them to still accept you with open arms.

You also cannot lose yourself to be with someone.

Distant friend, you are losing me just like you are losing yourself to him.