It has been months since we’ve had a real conversation, but I think about you everyday. Little things remind me of you; from the songs we used to listen to everyday, to the places we used to go all the time, to the sports we used to watch together. There’s alot I wish I could say to you so I guess I’ll start by saying this:

No matter how much time goes by you will always be family to me. For years and years we went through life together and nothing can change that. My family will always be your family, we’ll love you always.

No matter who comes in and out of my life there will never be another you. No one could ever replace you or the friendship we had for so long. It truly is irreplaceable.

No matter what bad things have happened between us I want you to know I don’t hate you and never have. Of course I hate some of the stuff you’ve done but that doesn’t mean I hate you. I know deep down inside you are still the amazing person I’ve always known and that you just got lost along the way. I want you to know I’m trying my best to let go of the bad stuff and forgive you.

No matter what if you ever needed anything I hope you know I’d be there in a heartbeat. Speaking terms or not you were part of my life for too long for me to not be there if you needed something. And I know if roles were reversed and I needed you, you’d be there too.

No matter what bad things have happened in the past I don’t think our friendship is truly over or ever will be. It’s more like a long pause on our friendship. But when we are both better people and healthy for each other I believe we will cross paths again and after a little while it’ll be like we never even stopped being friends.

No matter what know above all else I love and miss you because you always have been and always will be my best friend.