Thank you for helping me to become the person that I am today, for protecting me as we grew up, for making me laugh when I was sad, and for all of the times it was me and you against the world. For 19 years I had you by my side. Those 19 years you made me laugh a lot, and you made me want to hug you. Being a freshman in college when i lost you was the hardest time of my life and still is. Being away from our family every week was hard too. I didn't think I was going to make it but I always remembered you wanted what was best for me and wouldn't want me to give up. We have so many memories together. It's been almost three years (in December) since I lost you. Almost three years since you've made me laugh, almost three years since I heard your voice, and almost three years since I have given you a hug. Everyday I wake up and it still doesn't feel like you aren't here anymore. I feel like one day your just going to walk through the front door and just yell out "What's up shin". You being away has shown me that life is short so have fun and live the life you want to live and not to be scared of everything. I will cherish the 19 years we had together, and I will hold the memories very close to my heart. The hardest part of losing you was when life started moving forward. I try to tell myself that God must have had a very special job that he really needed you for. I know you're watching over mom, dad, and I. I wish you could have stayed here with us. Having to realize that even i had to move forward and I had to learn how to live without calling, texting, or joking with you. Having to realize that you won't be at my wedding or meet the guy I marry. Having to realize you won't be there to watch me graduate college. I'm about to be a junior in college now and it hasn't gotten any easier. I love you my angel, my brother, and my other half.

Love,

Shin