20 years is a long time

A long time to beat to breathe to feel to think and love

A long time to create to shape to learn and imagine

A long time to process and grow to make mistakes and learn

A long time to connect and lose

To fuck up and to cry

To break down and to be lost

To become confused and in search for something new

To be in search of what else and what if and why not

To be happy to shine to laugh and to forgive

To love hard and get hurt and then love again

To watch people leave and watch people stay

20 years is a long time.

A long time to appreciate and believe

To be thankful to give and to take

A long time to consume and idealize

A long time to educate and refuse

To trust and then leap

To fall and step back

Along time to see good and see bad

And then see some more bad and more good

A long time to memorize and cultivate- to transpire and overthink and overcome

The memory is the funny part

Where all of my 20 years reside

Sometimes a liar and sometimes tells the truth

Always confusing it's really nothing new

The loss and the light

The lessons and morally ambiguous deeds

The finite things that I will never let go

The things my heart flourishes on and the things that make it crumble

I couldn't have gotten here alone.

20 years is a long time.

I'm looking i'm hearing and touching and I can taste it

These memories that have brought me here

They paved and carried me and made me safe

The nostalgia can wander and sometimes makes new lines

But the plane is always the same always reliable always sturdy

It's a memory in itself and has guided me here

20 years really is a long time...