I think it's okay to feel upset for as long as you need to. People say "you need to get over it" a horrible thing was done to me and I'm a strong person that knows I never deserved any of it but sometimes I do get angry all over again and I feel like it's happening all over again. I get sad and I just want to lay here all day and forget I ever felt anything for him at all. I get mad at myself for trusting her. Sometimes I feel like I have accomplished so much and sometimes I feel like I failed. I have been told this is normal and I have been told it gets better in time. Both of these things are true.

You have the right to be feel sad and angry for as long as you need. There's a fine line between being hurt and having some residual pain for a while and letting it control your life. I'm saying this because so many people get worried that they're being annoying or are weak for feeling upset. That's not true. I say, cry everyday if you need to, if you need to vent and you feel like you're bothering someone then you need to find someone else. Don't you dare hold it in because that's what makes it linger and let's your feelings grow until you feel out of control. You control your life, you control how you react. You can't let someone else manipulate. I know that's super difficult. Clearly, I still struggle and let everything get to me some days but I've learned to channel that emotion into something else. I've learned to take that energy and feel it. I don't let the sadness consume me anymore.I don't sit around and get angry about people and situations that I can't change. I do things like write posts like this to help other people. I spend more time with my family because God knows they're my biggest blessing. I make art that makes me proud of myself and makes me realize I am talented. Most of all, I cry if I have to. Crying is not a sign of weakness, it's a sign of caring.

Talk to a friend, cry, sing sad songs, do some art, exercise, whatever makes you express how you feel. It's okay to be damaged and to need time to repair yourself. Don't let anyone tell you you can't feel a certain way but don't let that energy go to waste. Use it for good and use it to fight. Using the bad energy will make it go away faster. Everyone has their own pace but you can speed up your pace. Don't be afraid to feel but also don't be afraid to heal. You can have a bad day, it doesn't mean you are not healing. It doesn't mean you have backtracked. It doesn't mean you aren't strong. It just means that you're still working through it and people say they would rather feel nothing than to feel sadness ;but I would rather take my time to get over this and if I didn't feel the sadness, I wouldn't feel the determination to get better.