wildfire

nobody ever realizes

that they have the world

and all that they may need

right in front of their damn face

until

it's all burning

to ashes and dust

and they remember

all the things that they left behind

going back to school

it is time to go home

to where the streets are numbered rather than named

and the snow doesn't stick

where i'm allowed to have rice for every meal

and friends can be found just across the hall

instead of across the country

where fridays aren't just for weeping

and sundays aren't just for sleeping

where i don't mind a little rain

because i know the sun will reappear

eventually

lost

i took a drive yesterday

it was very long

i used a lot of gas

you would be upset with me for that

sometimes i get scared

and think about dying and stuff

but other times

i am perfectly okay with the way things are

and i decide to come home

stuck inside

so bored today

so i decided

to paint the walls

silver and blue

splatter paint

everywhere

the carpet looks like tie dye now

laughing

on my chin too

then

the door opened

and suddenly

it wasn't so funny anymore