It's hard getting out of a relationship. Whether it was good or bad or even long or short. You've shared memories with that person. You've laughed, cried, smiled, and were happy with them at some point. But sadly, not all relationships last. Whether you broke up with the person or they broke up with you, it isn't easy. Your friends tell you to be strong and that everything will be okay. That your life will be so much better without that person and that you deserve better. Which is all true, things do turn out to be okay in the end. It is hard and sometimes you wish people would understand that.

But getting out of a relationship is actually really hard. How do you go from talking and seeing someone you care about much every single day and then it is just all gone after a break up? How do you forget all the memories and laughs you have shared? How do you get rid of the love and care you have for the person? The answer is simple...you don't. And the next question is...will you ever?

It feels like I can't get rid of all these memories. I am not able to stop caring and loving this person. It's upsetting when people just tell you "everything will be okay" or "you'll get through it, he wasn't good or you anyways". It's hard to listen to people when they say that because he was someone that put the biggest smile on my face. Someone who knows you more than you know yourself. He was the one I told everything to at one point and the one who was there for me through everything.

Breakups are hard. I try my best to say I'm fine. I tell people I am doing great without him, but in all reality I am still hurting and the hurt feels like it won't go away. I go through each and every day wondering when I will feel better. When will I be completely happy again? Yes, I am happy but when you miss someone it feels like there's something missing.

I can't help but want things to get back to normal. I miss having someone there. Not a friend but someone I share everything to, someone I know I can go to for anything and everything. Someone to hold my hand, kiss my forehead, someone to show me off to the world. Being single has its perks but sometimes I miss having someone to call mine. Someone I know is there for me and only me.

Breakups are a lot harder than I thought they would be. How do I get through it when you're trying to show people that you are doing completely fine when in all reality all you want is to have that person back? It's hard to make yourself realize that you don't need it. I don't need to be in a relationship.

They say you don't need anyone to make you happy. But what do you so when that person made you feel more than happy, but loved at one point. Sometimes I ask myself what happened to that love. Why is it gone? And will I ever get it back? I'm getting through it. Each and everyday, I know I am getting stronger. But it is hard to keep strong when the person who was your rock, your support system is out of your life. It's hard when you come to the realization that you need to stop thinking about what could have been and move on to something better.