Often times throughout this crazy roller coaster we call life, we find ourselves stuck. Stuck at a dead end or maybe even stuck at a crossroads. Stuck just trying to figure out what direction life is going to take us in now. Just stuck. The sense of giving up crosses our minds a million times. We are wondering why we're in the situation AGAIN or even why we were in it in the first place. We're questioning everything and everybody. We wonder how much God thinks we can handle, because this was never in our plans. We lose our faith, our focus, and sometimes even ourselves in the process of figuring things out. As much as you want to believe that things just aren't going to get better, DON’T. They will.
Take it from me. The broken girl that still finds herself in the same situations over and over again asking the same question every time... Why me? I know. I know how overwhelming it is that God believes you're this strong. I know how hard it is when you don't even believe that, yourself. Hardly anyone around you believes it either. So why does He? This may be a question you find an answer to sooner OR later, but trust me, you will find that answer.
For me, I think I'm still finding that answer. Or maybe I should say those answers. I believe overtime you find new answers. What you've experienced or are experiencing may simply be breaking you now to only build you into something stronger for later. Or maybe it's steering you away from something to introduce you to something better. Or maybe none of us know the answer yet, but I know it's coming.
Life is one big mess.. we just have to learn to clean up. I believe we've been taught to "deal with it" or to "not worry about it" but I know how frustrating it is to hear that from someone who has no idea what it feels like to feel like this. But for some reason you still try. You try to deal with it. You try to not worry about until you think maybe, just maybe, you're doing better and then it all comes and hits you like a wave all over again. Then what? I wish I had an answer for you, but I don't. I'm not completely sure why God intended for certain situations to be brought into our paths, but I do know that He will never leave us stranded. I do know that it doesn't last forever. That dead end you're stuck at? God will make another way. The crossroads you're at for the 100th time already? God will show you the right direction even when you took the wrong one time after time. This trial is just a quick stop on the way to where you are going. This feeling of doubt, loneliness, and pain is only temporary--not permanent.
Romans 8:18 "The pain you are feeling now cannot compare to the joy that is coming."
