4 a.m. depression is different from your regular depression. Wouldn't say it's worse, more like the manifestation of the troubled thoughts you wished you've never had. 4 a.m. depression is the kind of depression where you question whether or not you're a "good person." While staring into the mirror, only to be surprised that the person looking back isn't the person you'd expect to see. While your eyes look back only to scare you at how different you've looked since you've first seen your own reflection. Giving you bittersweet thoughts and appeals on your itty bitty insecurities. While in fear of how deep your eyes stare right back.