Summer is already coming to an end. I got home in early June and it is already the beginning of August. Before the summer had started, I had a large and grand vision for my summer break: finally creating my portfolio, meeting up with friends, having photoshoots with friends and going to places I hadn't been at home in Los Angeles.

I had a lot that I wanted to do initially, but that started to fall out as the days and weeks went by. I kept telling myself I'll schedule all the things that I was planning to do, but here I am, with none of that done.

I spent much of my summer break helping my family out and spending time with them. I drove my siblings to practices, summer school and even work. I had a job for a few days of the week, but other than that I didn't really work on my personal work that I had wanted to work on.

And I did, and still do feel, a bit awful that I was not self-motivated enough to get everything in order.

But as my summer is coming to a close, I realize that the laziness that I allowed myself to have this summer was probably the best, for myself.

The next few summers, I probably won't have the time and the ease to do so. I hope to be busy with internships, photography and whatever other hobbies and work that I may have the next few years to come.

When I think about the future, and about how much time I will have to be rolling around at home and sleeping in every day, I remind myself, it's ok. Even if I haven't pushed myself as I usually do, I can use up the energy that I built up this summer for the next school year. So even if you haven't been productive, it's alright. Give yourself space.