I Always Stood Out Because Of The Color Of My Skin

I Always Stood Out Because Of The Color Of My Skin

My peers always pointed out my differences.


It's February and you know what that means? It's Black History Month! Have you ever felt like you stick out? Felt like you don't belong somewhere? Felt awkward when you went to hang-out with friends at their house that are a different skin tone then you? Welcome to my life I did all when I was growing up, but I have learned to branch out of that and being comfortable in my own skin. I always wanted to fit in when I was little around the time I was in elementary school.

I felt like my hair couldn't be different and I didn't really know why my hair was different, I just knew I stood out.

Now do not get me wrong I absolutely loved when my mom would put my hair in braids and would put beads in it. I loved swinging my hair around basically smacking myself in the face with my hair lol! I felt like Beyoncé when I would flick my hair because that what she did and I wanted to be like her. Having a different hair texture also meant that when it wasn't the same as everyone else they wanted to touch it.


You don't know where other's people's hands have been and especially being younger were playing and people stick their hands in their nose and mouth so I definitely didn't want nasty hands in my hair.

In middle school and high school, I remember being in history class and we would talk about slaves / and Africans and African Americans and my peers would put their head up and look at me as if I was there during that time. I mean YES that is my history but I was not there during that time period, and staring at me won't help me. Talking about specific things in class such as discrimination is something I know I could speak on during class because I have witnessed it first-hand.

Being black you almost have to watch your back at all times. By that I mean you need to stand up for what you deserve! People treat you different almost as if you are fragile. On the other hand, some look at you and are waiting for you to snap or act "ghetto" because we are seen with a stereotype and people expect us to act a certain way.

As I became older I started to realize that I am not the same. I am not meant to be the same.

God made me the way I am for a reason.

I am black for a reason. I am beautiful and I am strong. I never want to feel ashamed for who I am and who God created me to be. My black is beautiful. Feeling beautiful in your own skin is important regardless of whatever color you might be.

"Black Power is giving power to people who have not had power to determine their destiny." — Huey P. Newton

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It's all about balance.

Most girls are either girly girls or tomboys, but for some of us, we are a cross between the two. We are a rare breed between wearing dresses and shotgunning beers. We can relate to other girls but play sports with the boys without batting an eye. It's all about balance like balancing your ratio of pieces of pizza to how many pieces of cake you'll still be able to eat.

1. You love your comfy clothes.

You wish you could live the rest of your life in your favorite pair of sweatpants, yet you know you have to "adult" sometimes and put on more socially acceptable clothes.

2. You don't love shopping.

You find it a real hassle to drive all the way to the mall, just to aimlessly walk around looking for expensive clothes that you can't afford. Your one saving grace is the food court, that's your happy place.

3. You LOVE food.

Most of the time when you're in a bad mood it's because no one has fed you in a few hours. When you finally get that burger you've needed, you don't care who sees you devour it.

4. You're not graceful.

When you wear heels you look like a baby giraffe learning to walk. You wonder how these other girls glide around in heels while you're falling in trash cans.

5. You love wearing a dress.

You love wearing a dress, because think about it, it's one piece of clothing instead of having to put an entire outfit together. But you are sure to always wear some shorts under it, knowing that if shenanigans present themselves a dress isn't going to stop you from participating in the festivities.

6. Your makeup routine takes 10 minutes or less.

Sometimes you get in a girly mood and try to watch makeup tutorials, the end result never turns out well and normally results in you wiping it all off and eating an entire frozen pizza instead.

7. You love playing/watching sports.

You feel at home on the field or court, you're never afraid to get down and dirty when it comes to your favorite sport. You'd rather watch sports than "Say Yes to the Dress."

8. You love beer.

If given the choice between a fruity girly drink or a nice cold beer, there is no hesitation for you, beer it is.

9. Sometimes you just really don't know what kind of girl you are.

You don't consider yourself a girly girl, a tomboy, or anything else really...so the best title is a girly tomboy.

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Don't Let Jussie Smollett Discredit Actual Victims Of Hate Crimes

Jussie Smollett does not represent all victims of hate crimes, and these victims do not deserve to be discredited just because one man lied.


Near the end of January, "Empire" actor Jussie Smollett claimed he had fallen victim to a hate crime, stating two men had attacked him for his race and sexual orientation and hung a noose around his neck. It didn't take long for the story to gain attention, with some expressing doubt that the attack actually took place and others outraged by the graphic details of the attack and supporting Smollett. Smollett also appeared on "Good Morning America" to speak about the reaction of the attack as well as the issues of racism in the United States that were brought up by the incident.

However, upon further investigation, it seems that Smollett may have lied about the alleged attack and possibly paid the two men to fake the attack. Smollet has now been charged with disorderly conduct for allegedly filing a false police report on the attack.

It's very disappointing to hear that Jussie Smollett would lie and make up a hate crime. His lying is a major setback for real victims of hate crime, many of whom are accused of lying. Someone like Smollett, who has a platform and a following, lying about a hate crime only validates the feelings of those who doubt victims of hate crimes. Smollett's actions discredit real victims who are brave enough to come forward about their experiences.

What Jussie Smollett did was disrespectful to these victims. Hate crimes are a very real issue and are often very traumatic for the victims, and they are not something to make up or lie about. Smollett's actions should not define the public's view of all victims, but it is likely that this case will have an impact due to the attention it has received. Jussie Smollett, as someone who is very much in the public eye, should have been aware of the potential effect that his actions could have on not just himself, but all victims of hate crimes in all marginalized groups in the United States. He was selfish in his actions, and he is not the only one who has to suffer the consequences.

It's important to remember that Smollett's case is just one case out of many more. He may have lied about a hate crime, but that does not make hate crimes any less of a problem, nor does it mean other victims are not telling the truth. Jussie Smollett does not represent all victims of hate crimes, and these victims do not deserve to be discredited just because one man lied.

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