Hello my name is Isabella aka Izzy. I'm 16 almost 17 and I am a junior in high school and I am reaching out to you to tell you my story. When I was just 6 months old my mom walked out on me and my dad and left us with nothing. He was working 2 jobs just to make sure that I had what I needed. When I was 3 my mom started seeing me again but she was in a very abusive relationship. One day after my third birthday, he took me into my room and molested me. Then she got all her rights taken away and she is not allowed to see me.
It's been 13 years and I still haven't seen her. I was diagnosed with extreme anxiety and severe depression when I was only 6 years old. I was bullied all through elementary school. I had my first attempt in 6th grade. 8th grade I started cutting and I was 6 months clean until my freshman year when I was raped and then I started again and two weeks went by and I tried to overdose. There are times where I still cut but not always. I hate this Depression stuff. I want to change it.
The summer before my freshman year I met this guy named Trevor and we started off as just friends and that lasted about a week and then we started to develop feelings for each other and we connected almost instantly we had so much in common and he started to become the most important person in my life. The more and more that we talked the more I fell in love with him. At this point we were three months into our relationship and at first I was scared to tell him that I loved him but one night before we went to sleep he said goodnight beautiful I love u with three hearts. He was honestly the love of my life and I never wanted to lose him. Trevor and I almost never fought but one day we ended up getting into a dumb argument and ended up breaking up over it.
That night he texted me telling me that he was sorry and he wanted me back so we got back together. At this time we were about 6 months into our relationship. Trevor and I had some really good times even made plans to surprise him and come and see him. Mine and Trevor's' relationship was a long distance so I'm surprised we lasted a year. I didn't tell him we lasted a year before we broke up.
He was the love of my life. He gave me something I never thought I would find. The way he made me feel is hard to explain but what I do know is that it was the best feeling in the world. Since me and him broke up I have been in many relationships and I was in a very toxic one was abused everyday for 3 months and was raped. I grew up hating myself but Trevor taught me to love myself. I didn't tell him how much he did for me and meant to me and I wish that I would have because then maybe me and him would still be together.
I can't thank him enough for everything he has done for me. Trevor if you are seeing this I want you to know that I never stopped loving you and I NEVER will. I know that you have moved on and I'm happy for you. I wish the best for you in life. Thanks again.
Then as life went on I had some rough patches and was more depressed than usual. I was doing good in school finally getting my life on track and I met this guy named Chase Chase and I connected instantly. I had started to develop feelings for him but I was scared to tell him because I didn't know if I was over Trevor. Then he started to make me feel some type of way and I knew he was who I wanted to be with. He slowly became the love of my life and slowly became the most important person in my life. He was all I wanted and cared about. He makes me so happy even though we are currently not together at the moment I still would like to let him know that I love him so much. U have given me a purpose and a reason to be here. U have taught me to love myself and have shown me that I am amazing and to not let anyone tell me different. I love everything about you. I love your attitude and sense of humor and the way u can make me laugh without even trying. There are things that you know about me that even my family and closest friends don't know. You sit there and talk so bad about yourself and honestly it hurts me because you are one amazing ass person. There are not enough words to describe how much u mean to me or how much I love u. So thank u so much for everything. I love you. Recently I have met this guy named Wesley and omg hes the best friend I could ever ask for. We just met and we already are so close we connected almost instantly. You have done a lot of shit for me too. I love u Wesley.
