Every day when I log onto my social media accounts like Instagram, I already know what I'm subjecting myself to. A perfectly curated feed of the exact same people with the exact same pictures and poses, just with a different outfit and "prolific" captions. And quite honestly, it sickens me.
I'll admit, I used to be one of those girls who posted their entire lives on Snapchat or Instagram or Twitter...but that was in high school. Every Friday night at the football games we had to take a million pictures so we could show the Internet that we were there. If you didn't post a picture from the party Saturday night, then how could you prove you really went? If you weren't posting your entire life online, you were either boring, had no friends or "weren't doing it right".
Now, when you scroll through my Instagram, you'll find that I post maybe once or twice a month. You might be wondering, if I'm not posting my business online, does that mean I've been living under a rock? Technically, no. I just have neither the time nor the desire to put that much effort into how strangers view my life. Not every moment in my life requires an overly edited, witty Instagram post.
Don't get me wrong, it's fun to post cute pictures with your friends or your adorable dog or that artsy wall you came across downtown. And the pictures aren't the problem. I'm all here for capturing the sunrise or taking candids of my friends. It's the constant, obsessive posting that I have a problem with. Because what are you trying to prove by posting a selfie every single day with some deep caption that you probably found on Pinterest or Twitter? Is there an unspoken rule somewhere that states you have to post at least once a day (and multiple times on your story)? Is it your way of letting your followers know that you're still alive and thriving?
Aside from the unhealthy amount of time you spend on editing the thousands of pictures you took until you find the perfect one to post, don't you want to save some memories to cherish for yourself? Maybe it's just me, or maybe I'm just selfish, but I love looking back on moments that only I know about. In a way, it makes it more special—more sacred. Because once it's online, it's tainted by likes and comments from people who probably don't even know the context. Sure, they say a picture is worth a thousand words, but what they don't tell you is that it won't capture the sound of your laugh. It won't replay the song that was playing or the exact conversation. It won't show exactly how you feel. All it shows is what you want your audience to see.
And I think that's why I have such an issue with social media. It's just one big, aesthetically pleasing facade. At the same time, it's also what's so appealing. You're (mostly) in control of how you appear online. You can make yourself as happy or as "perfect" as you want to be. But in reality, you don't have that power. And that scares the living shit out of you.
All I'm really trying to say is, social media really isn't that serious. Your life will not end if you go a week without posting, because to be honest, no one cares as much as you think they do.
Put the phone down, log out of your millions of profiles, and soak up just being in the present.