1. Making Those Cringey Phone Calls.

When I have to make a phone call I have these simple steps to take before I call the other person.

1. Scream internally

2. Pace my room acting out what I and the other person will say

3. Attempt to pick up the phone to call then panic

In the end, I will end up calling the person but... I am not always ready for those trick questions like what is your name.

2. Overthinking About Trying New Things.

I am the type of person who always wants to try something new, yet when the time comes to trying it I panic on what others are thinking. Like there is this little monster in my head who encourages me to try something then backs off when it gets too close. For instance, I want to try a new hairstyle. Nothing too dramatic, yet just something new to me. My little monster was like "Heck yeah! Let's do it!". I scheduled the appointment (after going through my simple steps that are listed above) and now my little monster is like "Eh, do you really want people to be looking at you?" or should I say he does this "YOU SHOULD REALLY PANIC RIGHT NOW BECAUSE YOU ARE DOING SOMETHING YOU DON'T NORMALLY AND THIS WILL FOREVER CHANGE WHO YOU ARE. NO ONE WILL SEE YOU AS THE SAME PERSON AGAIN. PANIC PANIC PANIC!"

3. The Silent Questioner.

I know I am not the only person who gets afraid of asking questions in class, but sometimes it gets really bad. For instance, when I was a little girl I was too afraid of asking the teacher to go to the bathroom because I was sick. In my head, I thought it was rude and that the teacher didn't want to be bothered by little ole me. Well....I threw up on the kid next to me. I don't know what was worse the kid looking at me disgusted for the rest of the year or the fact that I had spaghetti the night before. Now, I have learned my lesson to ask when I am in desperate need of something, yet I still haven't learned that not all of my questions aren't stupid. Well some of them are, but let's not get into it.

4. Awkward Or Uncomfortable Situations.

I am that type of person who laughs in uncomfortable situations. Yes yes, I know that just makes it worse but what do you want me to do? Try to push for a more awkward conversation? No, thank you. I would slink away like a worm and go hide in my book nook where I can contemplate every single living decision. I always seem to make the situation even more awkward. I remember this time when I was walking next to a person, whom I just met mind you, and I said to them "Ha, I didn't know this is a race. You walk really fast, you must be taller than me." No... He was, in fact, shorter than me. I am a 5'2 human being that is constantly filled with awkward sayings and actions.

5. I Don't English Well.

You know how some people say that there is a tube that runs from your brain to your mouth and it's supposed to help you speak in correct full sentences. I think mine is constantly broken or so it seems, especially when I am in public. Because once you put me out in the face of the public you will not receive any coherent sentences from my mouth. Honestly, I believe that my brain is working faster than my mouth can keep up. Thanks, brain. This is why I act out what I am going to say to people before I meet them. Then when I do meet them I completely forget what I acted out and get flustered. It's worse when I meet strangers just randomly. Again, I am not ready for the trick questions of when my birthday is.